I am sorry I am such a low life scum, if killing myself made it better I would do it but at the very least I see where you are coming from. I have issues and there is no sense in you putting up with my sorry ass. I deserve every cruel thing that has happened and ever will happen to me. I didn't treat you or anyone else right, I am selfish and at the core I want things to work out but they didn't. I suck and you are completely justified in your actions but know that I am not without remorse for what little that is worth.