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Within 9 days from today i celibrate the birthday from Charles Darwin.

Because time is also evolution, its the next day 8 days before the party, but thats logical.

I actually don't share much in the way of feelings in person, nor do I actually "complain" about anything. Enough so that people comment on it. The only people that'll hear much of anything are therapists, or I'll go off to be by myself for a little bit to get things out in private (or longer when doing outdoors stuff).

^ Similiar to me. I don't think I express my interior feelings to anybody, maybe sporadically, rarely,if ever. But im trying to work on that. Neither do i complain, well, maybe if it some drama has been brewing, something has been bottled up too long. I guess like a volcano. But i can take like weeks of me keeping my thoughts to myself. Before I confront somebody in person, normal cause it's out of my hands at that point. shtf time. Passing the Rubicon.

As far as feelings go. Sometimes when i half sleep waking up, i think about things, situation, scenarios, both real and hypothetical, and i can get fukked up emotional overload. I can only describe it has some residue cptsd in my system. Cause it pretty uncomfortable. Not like a normal fleeting emotion, more intense, more lingering. I think its being motionless, cause when i get up, fully alert and moving, my mood is usually very good. I guess to take it to extreme, the more physically active i am, like for eg.g jogging. running outdoors, (very active activity, which i am apt to do, ya know test the cardio system...) I suppose the more impervious i am to bad emotions. (this is endorphin neurotransmitters and other chemicals, so says science.)


Today*: "Oh is this guilt, oh is this an empathy attack?, if this happened, would it be karma? am i paranoid? ....wha the hell is this emotion, and why is it burning up my body...." It's like the universe sometimes echos scenarios, setting things up, in different sets of people..... why is reality playing tricks on me like this? "

*(These are very specific people in my real life. This is about nobody here at WP. Not To say some people here at WP don't play on my mind, some certainly do. And they know who they are...But offline, has certain gravitas, that online doesn't. )

I don't think anyone owes me anything, nor does society. If I help anyone or society, it'll be because I want to, and there's no cost for that either.

I hate my face. Sometimes you must face your face.

I don't think I deserve good things, nice things.
Why should I?
When it makes no difference
To my state of being.

The older I get, the less willing I am to engage in negativity.

I don't see any point in buying myself a gun.

I smoke little cigars.

the thing about grey-rock made me me wonder? schizoid me??
aah it makes sense that some people i asked unanimously told me not to divorce? wow
not that i can make it into any label




thus... back to asd

I Like documentaries. All kinds. I've watched hundreds upon hundreds of them. The more obscure the better.

I heard about it. Suicide forest. Seen photos. I think I might have briefly watched clip on youtube about it. I was intrigued. This was a couple years ago. I stumbled upon that little factoid.

I have watched Vlad the impaler documentary. (Quite a fierce individual....to say the least. ) Wasn't he from Romania?

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A certain person who posts on this board, is from Romania. Isn't she. Maybe shes descended from Vlad... lol

^Yes, he was Romanian. I recommend the one about witches too, it was so much fun. They are basically running a business there and making great money

Witches (1990)
One of the many movies I watched as a kid, and found mildly disturbing.
I read a lot of Roald Dahl books. As a child.
I enjoyed the stories, and the illustrations.

I was and am obsessed with witches since i was a Child, i also read many books and watched many movies/TV shows about witchcraft. Will watch that movie too when i have the chance. Didn't know it was a legitimate "job" in Romania though, apparently the government even wanted to tax the witches, but they threatened to hex the politicians so they changed their mind. Talk about superstition

Witches, Vampires, there's a pattern emerging....makes me think, Werewolves, Frankenstein....I bet you love Halloween.


Silver Bullet (1985)
Another movie i remember watching.
Not rated very highly.
I had interest in Stephen King as a child/adolescent.
I have sympathy for people in wheelchairs.
I find Garey Busey an interesting individual.
He nearly died in motorcycle accident, and it scrambled his brains.
He's funny and entertaining, and maybe crazy.
I used to watch his show.

Witchcraft, i know Sinatra sang a song, called that.
That and the Salem Witch trials.
That's the extent of my knowledge.