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I seem to have burning my bridges down to a fine art

Back in the 60s you could get up at dawn on the summer solstice and have the whole world to yourself, even in Sheffield. So peaceful. I miss that. I like people but I like solitude and quiet as well.

Timeline coincidences with me "degenerating" or subtly losing something...

I've finally found what describes what I've been dealing repeatedly for years and years since puberty:

Kept saying it's a cluster headache or a tension headache... Too many times I kept describing and that's all I ever get until now.

AND I EXPERIENCED THIS REPEATEDLY WITHOUT HIGH ALTITUDE TRAVEL, FLIGHT OR DIVING.

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Care to expand on that?

Oh I'm just looking back and literally all I can see is burnt bridges

I seem to have been doing it all my life

That sounds very uncomfortable.

I've got a bit of it right now, but I think it's just a cold.

It seems the medication I've been taking for a month now just (coincidentally but very reliability) works, unlike ones I was taking and intended for.

I've experienced said headaches way less nowadays. Maybe I hadn't for several week straight.

I hadn't noticed until I went helmet diving and backed out.
Made me remember how I hated sleep and how I was made to be very frustrated and tired all day long for years and years.

This headache can be mild but chronically irritating because it was subtly painful. It's the very thing I always wake up to almost every day of basically since teenage years.

Sometimes my whole left side of the head hurts, sometimes it's just throbbing, sometimes I just cannot touch it.

Either ways, it's making me 2 steps away from meltdown consistently.
Maybe it was my own version of anxiety.

Except that's not the case for obvious reasons because my thoughts do not reflect on it; it's more like my own version of chronically sensory overwhelmed with zero sensory accomodations.
And it's in my body, not the environment.

But when the complete opposite is felt, I felt more like myself and with basically no executive dysfunction.

When it's bad, it's disabiling enough for me not to travel alone or just not function without pain medication.
Painful enough to hit my head over it. And essentially half a step away from melting down.


That's just the pain.

Try dealing with very a loud and visibly gross nasal and respiratory symptoms on top of said pain, that also doesn't stop that will constantly disrupt you from doing what you're doing.

And the quality of life issues and indignities just went with unmanageable chronic rhinitis.


The assumed theory of my burnout during my worst years before I was diagnosed was constantly getting bullied.

Maybe this is the true culprit of all my burnouts, of my lack of improvement and adjustment issues all along.

I already guessed the latter two. But the first one changes a lot of things for me.

Last edited by Edna3362 on 01 Apr 2025, 9:22 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Sometimes it's hard to tells burning your bridges from burning your boats.

Sometimes a mild chronic pain can seem worse than a short-lived acute pain. It's not bad for a while, but eventually it can test the sanity of the one who has it.

Anyway, it sounds like you've found a medication that works at last.

I had my (very damaged) tooth pulled out less than an hour ago by my dentist - what a relief it's already over .

I'd hate to have to be on a jury me

It doesn't feel like I'm talking to myself you know

I would absolutely love to live on Sesame Street me

Simpler innit

When I was a kid, I supposedly had flat feet. I went to an ortho center, and they had me wear corrective boots. So, as a kid, I looked metal af wearing bad ass leather boots everywhere, while all the other kids were wearing sneakers. However, I was jealous of them going to fancy store like Payless while I had to go to some lame medical center for mine lol

Also, if I remember correctly, I was either very close to wearing leg braces like Forrest Gump, or actually wore them for a short time. I can't remember because it was in the period where we forget a lot. I wish I could remember for sure.

I remember kids wearing leg braces when I was younger

I don't think it was all that unusual back then