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A lot of shopping with my mom.

I went to my hairdresser today, which I rarely do because of sensory issues. Today was lovely. I was the only person there and he didn't even have music playing so it was just silent and calm.

Suddenly an older lady came in without an appointment and sat there waiting her turn, talking non-stop so loudly that I could hear every word she harped from the other end of the salon as if she were shouting in my ear. I literally had to put my book away and plug my ears with my fingers. What's wrong with people? I swear she didn't breathe or even stop to think about what she was saying. My stylist couldn't get a word in edgewise.

Now I have a headache.

Skipping ‘parenting’ class

cannot face it after feeling sorry fr son esp now when he was so ill n in pain n unablw to explain i


Torture is to have to see n
videos of children far more advanced with little to no issues

n have to hear parents whine about how sad /depressed they are about a minor or nonexistent issue

(literally nonexistent some ppl joined the class bcuz they just imagine delays over some minor thing which are not there wow!)
N hear teacher take those things even petty non issues seriously n discussing it like life or death


whereas my son is not even at the lowest level


That parenting class literally makes me want to die at the best of times

n if i attend today i will probably have to fight real suicidal thoughts fr a few weeks i srsly will at least start self harming again whicb i only did when i used to live with Ex mil n she wd lock the door n tale the baby who was crying n xH wd not intervene n threatened me

Confusing assingments.

rain

wrong weather forecast

phone won't recharge

forgot to bring book

nobody wants to be my dumbfuck friends

homophobic ass holes won't apologize the f**k up

I would willingly want to be your dumbf— friend even just online
The only thinhg is (trying to break it down logically as u do)-
1. Would u benefit or like that?
2. Would i severely annoy you

be my friend is what sense? what would you and i do differently, if we were online friends, than we do right now? because i do not get what the point is.

do not know if i would benefit, because i am not precognitive. i do not know what is going to happen before it happens. benefit in what way? you can't measure all the variables and define what is "benefit".

do not know if i would like it. thought i would like being around mister redelings. as usual i was wrong.


do not know if you would annoy me. i am not telepathic. different people find different things annoying. but maybe i find too many things annoying in the first place.

Everything u mentioned is what I was alluding to as subpoints of those questions . Eg no benefit/use if cannot interact more etc

In real life those thibgs would be easier to discern or at least the first point would be established based on circumstances

So overall a void remark but I can be friendly at the leasr n care n show it as much as possible in this medium even if not a friend or seen as one

it's just online. you could have a small impact, positive or negative. but everything you write is filtered through the computer. so i do not interact with you in real time, or in person.

True but in any case that means u are willing to tolerate my remarks n responses?

Because i feel v concerned or interested or worried or amused at different times with ur writing

Another member I felt like this aboyt was Raleigh

I think bcuz u are like my youngest Brother (I mentioned it before)

EG the way he also thinks about n finds the same type of things (eg illogical people or phrases, dirty areas etc) annoying

He also has autism n Marfans
For unknown reasonsHe is very likeable to me compared to most people

so even if it annoys him i feel immense caring n then say things to show it
Even if it is annoying to him
I have to force myself to shut up


also the way u think is more rational n broken down clearly

which is how I am trying to think
As my way of thinking is irrational

1. If you want to be his friend, then be his friend, don't ask him
2. Would he benefit from it? Yes, definitely.
3. If this would severely annoy him? Yes, probably. Like hell.
4. Does it mean you shouldn't try? No, quite the contrary. It will make him a better person, and he will have bigger chances to find another friend in non-virtual world.
Of course, the choice is yours. Just my 2c.

I woke up with a strong sense of hate.

That corporations don't realize that autistic people are not confined to one gender/age/race/ethnic/sexuality/etc

It is so cold out.

That a theocrat happens to be sitting right next to me the nearby computer workstation

My mom bullied me as I was eating breakfast.