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My mom yelled at me for not taking my iron supplements when in fact I did.

Social and academic stress are pulling me back to depression. Everything I used to enjoy at school is starting to exhaust me, even art class. I feel like I'm drowning in quicksand, every time I think I find stable ground it gives way beneath me and I'm being pulled under again. I'm filled with so much longing, not to be normal, but to have a genuine connection with someone that actually lasts. I don't mean with a guy/boyfriend, I just want a friend, someone I can hug and cry with when I'm feeling like I'm simultaneously drowning in quicksand and falling through a million sheets of glass. I just want happiness and a desire to live that doesn't disappear when I get overwhelmed like this. I wish I could care about someone for more than a couple months. I don't think any of my friendships are very close, I can talk to them, but there are no tears or emotional hugs, there is no feeling. I blame myself for that, I try to keep my friendships somewhat distant because if I don't keep it that way I eventually stop caring for the friend or even begin to dislike them. At first it's amazing to have a friend I can confide the whole truth in, but eventually I grow unhappy and begin to feel trapped. The worst is when I think "this time will be different. I feel so strongly connected to this person, there's no way I'll stop feeling this way." because inevitably my feelings do change and I've once again screwed myself over. Even worse, someone else was caught in the crossfire. Every time that happens I'm forced to see that whatever part of me is causing these friendships to end will never let me be as close as I want to be with my friends. Sorry for that huge pity party, I know my problems are trivial in comparison to the things many people struggle with, I'm just hurting and I needed a way to talk personal stuff without worrying that I would lose a friend.

Tiredness from not sleeping well last night and the time change is not helping matters

getting into discussions that just makes me PO'd

headache bothering me

Not making the effort to go outside today.

stress-bombs

The last remaining bank in our town has closed down. When I first came here a dozen years ago, there were five (including a couple of building societies), and even 18 months ago there were still three. Yorkshire Bank shut up shop in the late summer of 2017, Barclays around six months ago, now RBS is gone.

Menstrual

No friend came to aikido

Gordon's tattoo looked like a contagious rash

One of the children were coughing.

After Rolando touched me, itchy. Suspect allergic to the penis' perfume

None of the homophobic ass holes wrote me a letter of apology

I truly hate the gnome meme. It wasn't funny the first time, it wasn't funny the second time, so it sure as f**k wasn't funny the billionth time.

There is nothing to do in my jail cell

Lying on back playing with the phone


Had a nightmare about structural engineering

Some b***h had the nerve to say "what?" To me. Like that's the etiquette equivalent of "excuse me"


Headache


Today nobody wanted to be my stupidass friend

I get health anxiety so that can ruin parts of my day like today

That guy who was in the supermarket and kept going on about 'gay boys' should have but whatever, homophobic idiot.

Mum told me that she kept having nightmares and waking up early in the morning because of stress etc.

I keep thinking something's going to go wrong.
And, that my neighbor is out to get at me.

hoping to become employed..

Anxiety.

unclear directions and wonder WTH I should do about the muddles message I got

head spinning

i hate this kinda stuff, making me exhausted