Post something that made you HAPPY today.

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Weather

Weight

No period

Izzy restaurant

Bus

Nobody and nothing bothered me today thus far yet.

It started raining early this morning. The sound as it fell on the corrugated metal roof of the patio was very soothing, and I fell back to sleep almost immediately. I woke up feeling so good that there was no need for any pain-killers so far.

My team just got invited to an ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE Equestrian Tour of IRELAND. Im freaking out right now!
Its for like 10 days and sounds seriously epically awesome! AHHH.

Dramatic light in eastern sky.

We celebrated my mum's birthday. It was my mum, dad and I. We had apple pie and ice cream for desert.

A cute cat video

coffee and my kitties.

Ran out of meds n since Friday the drs office is being difficult saying tjey never received my pharmacy’d request fr prescription renewal.
Then stopped picking up (the receptionist rarely picks up any day anyways n puts u on hold ‘hello dr’s office plesse hold’ then hangs up)

Called both multiple times etc yest n Friday

Pharmacist even sent them ‘urgent’ labelled faxes n he called them himself

Anyway
(May they all go to hell as they do this all the time among many other unprofessional things n this is the thing tht will push me to switch to a better doctor)

Not having that med made me extremely back to my baseline level whicg is so not functional etc

Anyway the good side of thst is i know fr sure i cant live without med (welbutrin it helps in concentration n gives me ability to talk out loud etc which was v difficult fr me before)
I was thinking of getting off it n just being as i always was thinking maybe it wa just a matter of skills acquisition (former lack of functioning n depression n anxiety) but now i remember how it felt like
N ‘skills acquisition’ frm being on the med n being able to socialize somewhat
Did not make a difference

So - in a strange way now its a blessing to have had 3 days of extreme suicidal , confusion, wanting to focus on one tiny thing, depression , inability to talk much etc - bcuz now I know what i ws always like wasnt due to lack of skills
But an actual thing i alwaus had (self doubt keeps coming as i thouhhy maybe i was imagining the ASD n it was a big excuse)

N also shows me the med was beneficial

Rain

No period

Found a big Seminole pumpkin in the garden and put some in a salad for dinner.

No homophobia

Pushed someone's car

Not too itchy

Cvs