kazanscube wrote:
Thinking of how relationships & friendships failed, probably due to my eternally damned nature not being able to perceive and respond appropriately to such.I guess such things are not meant for all persons.
Sometimes, when people are unique and special, it is hard to find a connection with others. The wavelength is different. Please don't blame yourself, as you are not to blame. It does get lonely though.
You are a warm and nice person, so in the end, it's their loss.
Like my nickname says, I am the Lone Wolf, have always been alone, also have trouble communicating and misinterpret things a lot. Makes things pretty hard, and I have wished I could turn back time an uncountable time. Am sorry for reactions, but I am who I am and hope people can forgive me. Like you, I mean no harm, just sometimes react in a wrong or strange way.
Some people see ASD as a blessing, but having a successful friendship, reacting in my clumsy way, seeing it crumble before my eyes, makes me think of it as a curse a lot.
All we can do is accept ourselves and try to figure out, piece by piece, how to communicate better. We do our best, and for that I am proud of you and you should be proud of yourself.
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