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29 Nov 2018, 6:57 pm

Can I say that I got an appointment for a phone interview to exam invigilate at that other major post-secondary education institution of Hamilton?--the one I actually went to :) .



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29 Nov 2018, 7:23 pm

Surgery is a necessary evil sometimes.

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29 Nov 2018, 8:47 pm

dragonsanddemons wrote:
I really wish I would just die of natural causes already, I'm so tired of just being an inconvenience/annoyance, of nothing working even after thirteen years or so of trying to manage my various mental disorders and such (primarily depression), of applying to job after job after job (yes, including crappy part-time jobs - the only two jobs I've ever been able to get were both working as a part-time janitor) and no place wanting to hire me, and most of all, I'm just so utterly exhausted of living. I truly can't bear the thought that I might well only be a quarter of the way done. I've had little to no desire or will to live for as long as I can remember. The only reason I'm not doing it myself is that it will be easier on my parents if I die by natural causes instead, or at least something besides my own hand, something none of us really had any control over. But I can't find words adequate to express how very much I feel ready to be done.


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29 Nov 2018, 11:37 pm

I wonder what I will be like three months after my surgery, next Wednesday.


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29 Nov 2018, 11:52 pm

I wonder how my boyfriend's and I talk will go tomorrow.
I gotta go to sleep soon.
Other people, please keep electronics quieter or off.
Please.
Goodnight.



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29 Nov 2018, 11:54 pm

^^^^good luck to you both. :star:



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29 Nov 2018, 11:54 pm

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I actually got questioned by a security guard once because someone saw me in a public bathroom crying.


Well, way back in 2006, I happened to be horrendously misidentified as being someone on the no fly list..[/quote]

What is a no fly list?



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29 Nov 2018, 11:55 pm

auntblabby wrote:
^^^^good luck to you both. :star:


Thank you.



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29 Nov 2018, 11:56 pm

caThar4G wrote:
kazanscube wrote:
I actually got questioned by a security guard once because someone saw me in a public bathroom crying.


Well, way back in 2006, I happened to be horrendously misidentified as being someone on the no fly list..


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What is a no fly list?

Department of Homeland Security has a list of suspected bad actors not allowed to board flights in/from the USA or to the USA.



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30 Nov 2018, 1:07 am

dragonsanddemons wrote:
I really wish I would just die of natural causes already, I'm so tired of just being an inconvenience/annoyance, of nothing working even after thirteen years or so of trying to manage my various mental disorders and such (primarily depression), of applying to job after job after job (yes, including crappy part-time jobs - the only two jobs I've ever been able to get were both working as a part-time janitor) and no place wanting to hire me, and most of all, I'm just so utterly exhausted of living. I truly can't bear the thought that I might well only be a quarter of the way done. I've had little to no desire or will to live for as long as I can remember. The only reason I'm not doing it myself is that it will be easier on my parents if I die by natural causes instead, or at least something besides my own hand, something none of us really had any control over. But I can't find words adequate to express how very much I feel ready to be done.


Can I say how (Lao-tzu;from caring comes courage...hence it (courage) is not 'unconsciousness' but arguably closer to a form of consciousness closer to a 'revealing expression') I admire you actually saying/having typed that..I know it's not the sort of thing ppl like to lie about...the part about "I've had little to no desire or will to live for as long as I can remember"...there is such an intellectual honesty there in the face of change which existence obligates us to put exposure to, which I can only dream of expressing consistently--which I why I find it so 'valor-ful' speaking as someone who in certain periods has had only propounding obsessed/pondered about death/final changes whereas you are 'forward enough' to say how their has been a part of you which has consistently embraced seeing it face-to-face..

:) ..thank you.



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30 Nov 2018, 1:11 am

I want to be the little green Sweet Pea of Vancouver General. :mrgreen:


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30 Nov 2018, 1:16 am

auntblabby wrote:
^^^^good luck to you both. :star:


Thank you.


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30 Nov 2018, 1:25 am

How dishonest is it for me to say 'yes' to my dad asking if he can sleep in the room I sleep in. I let him in acknowledgement of his health problems.

-___- b/c who else is going to take care of them? (my parents)--God?.



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30 Nov 2018, 1:41 am

I intend to finish restoring the audio from my reel tape of Earl Grant's fine Christmas album, "Winter wonderland" and then burn it onto a CDR for my future enjoyment.



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30 Nov 2018, 1:46 am

sidetrack wrote:
How dishonest is it for me to say 'yes' to my dad asking if he can sleep in the room I sleep in. I let him in acknowledgement of his health problems.

-___- b/c who else is going to take care of them? (my parents)--God?.


not.


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30 Nov 2018, 3:34 am

Why are my feet cold when the rest of me is hot?


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