Deep down inside I wished things would have been very different, but they're not as you chose to align yourself with persons whom don't give a damned about emotional content other than their own literally. I know that I was a mere face in the crowd, though I wished that had not been the eternally damned case, yet what could I do? Nothing, nothing at all as we both know that.I'm not going to lie to myself and say, I did not have brutally honest feelings for you on a romantic level and your overall welfare;however, you were never able to notice nor recipriprocrate at all, which I blame myself for. These days I often wonder if your still with that person whom eventually became your husband whom also, I reluctantly say this, wound up turning your into a prostittue in the lteral sense.. No one could fault me for not having real human emotions as, I did not mask nor hide them..
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I'm an extremely vulnerable person. Vulnerability and emotion are very closely linked.