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Ate too much and lost count

Running tally

Running out of methods to waste away my "life"

Wet shoes smell

I hear something that sounds like faint bass. I'm wondering if it's just traffic because I heard similar noise in the city before when I lived in an apartment or hotel.
???

Here comes the drudgery of looking for a new smartphone .

..I want to explain to someone why I don't like travelling.

Still fuming from my brother's suggestion of acting on ~$99 travel offers at Hamilton international airport.

[Insert image of 'Woundwort' from Watership down here]

February, April, July and January : months in which I was not 'provided for' by the job I currently hold.

Glad that I dropped the person whom was supposed to help me gain employment..As he was simply giving me the run around

The mention of virtue is 'unnatural' for humans on #20 in this listing intrigues me..as does the mention of Austin Powers in #9 . I feel like finding someone to talk about #3 ..

http://www.cracked.com/pictofacts-1222- ... e-history/

'Landing on the right side of history' could mean 'being ahead of the curve' as far as depicting and/or demonstrating equality.
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'Not much to do today' that I can think of immediately. I think I am in the 'end phase' of healing and could at least transfer stuff from my iPhone to the computer if anything..

On my way out the library meaning to 'unlock' an exercise DVD, a non-Sikh person walking next has something of a utility knife not fully withdrawn fall out. He picks it up before going to a bike placed next to the bench of sorts where the contraption to unlock DVD's are. Not going to complain about mall security, I don't think that's the point. I'm not to sure that's the point.

Pondering about me having been 'shaken' and 'whether it's my fault' after obsessing over 'Watership down' and animal violence last evening ('Fire on fire' by Sam Smith still on my mind) might be a reason for why that happen; a cognitive distortion. I should be thankful for how nothing came out of that, as the person picked up the knife and went on their bike not minding me.

If boredom is rage spread thin and I have major trouble disjoining assertion (*effective* assertion) from aggression, it might be b/c I find assertion boring. One translation of assertion is *affirmation* and given the 'lose-lose' mentality of an autistic like myself it makes sense why I would struggle to do something which I would seldom like to do/ adjust a 'configurative performance' for, when it's not about being afraid of not meeting a goal.. something like that..

Nothing to do in "life"

Will never:. Get apologies or financial reparations from homophobic simpletons as*holes.. change the world. Have friends. Structural engineering. Published.

Will always:. Depression, anxiety, gender identity Disorder, homophobic, six personality disorders, autism

Brain, five Hertz and three watts

f**k mister redelings

Crave social interaction, but there are just too many things precious lil "people" do , that I hate

Social rejection

What is so bad about social rejection?





Cathy Lynn

Yes and it did not stop itching



It's worse in the cold

Maybe one of the ass holes from aikido gave me a skin infection


They do not wash their belts

Tradition

Those lil dipshits hardly ever wash the mat

My child.
Also, the fact my upstairs neighbor was stomping around for about an hour.
Questions that went through my head-
Why?
Does this person have steel toe boots?
Is this person overweight?
Is this person mad at me or just mad?
Why?

And then, annoyance.
And, bad thoughts.
Then, sleep.

Taking sex for granted=emergence of gender inequity

Use of chemically based ‘social lubricants’ such as alcohol=a possible basis for addiction

Casually socializing and ‘making friends’=cliques which take things for granted and succeed while being effectively successful and not beyond taking such success for granted.

That last one in particular might be why I am so resistant to the idea of making friends.

The orientation of my mind being shame: when will that stop?..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s4GMLkTNv0