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Psychological abuse/torment/torture and how it haunts a person's life no matter how much he/she tries to get away from it and it's disastrous effects. Basically, normal parents would teach their children to be able to adapt to situations and handle them without interference from a 3rd party, or have the self courage to do a great many things in life without feeling like their a complete failure over and over again. One can easily see the signs of physical abuse, but the psychological side of things is more deeper and profound which affects any/all areas of a person's life...(sighs) meaning my own..

The one who's upholding that narrative the most here would change his tune really fast if he spent an hour in the ghetto in my area.

Progressing on wards with my life despite obstructions or hurdles..

I am 30 years old and my life has been a mess since I was 17.

Too lazy, depressed, apathetic, bitter, hateful , angry to make progress on "life"


Hormones

Work

Friends


Job, goal, hobby

If that was a response to what I said before, I'm not blaming white men for every single act of violence in America. What I said before came more out of dread of being judged for how at 27 how 'obedient' I remain to my mom and frankly for all the images of 'independence' and glamorized success via laborious rebelling which is espoused to white ppl, in a lot of ways the concept that parents must disengage from children from about their late teens to early 20's is a highly erroneous and dangerous one which to me tells more of an adherence to a social theory where ditching out of the commitment to familial interdependence is high priority, all the more dangerous when ppl don't really even have their 'feeling worn on their arms' often nor with nuance.

The day(s) that gay parenting becomes more common will signal the 'death throes' to functional heterosexism and homophobia as more and more realize how 'traditional masculinity' was not uncommonly a fear-inducing miasma which was holding women or female-identifying persons back for 40,000 years in terms of having a balanced say when it came to competitive certainty and finality. More and more sticking to 'traditional masculinity' is going to start looking like a mental health destabilizing remnant used by ppl who 'don't know any better'/underclasses. Imagine this happening in the 'developing world' regions like in Jamaica, Brazil, Thailand and India and this is going to send a message to the 'working class d---bag' and their macho-ness sustaining the 'boy's club' attitudes of entire industry/labour sectors and their aging.

=_= Or..(b/c anything with less expectations is more often to be 'meet' or happen although it would be a drag if this happens), same-sex couples with families of their own will mainly prefer to 'keep to their own' in well to do neighbourhoods with more recent 'emerging demographics' who will understand them if not hassle them far less, leaving not as well to do neighbourhoods ever more 'marked' as s--k--g because of ever more dated attitudes being prevalent.

*Sigh*.

The bit of wasteland I used to go to with my ex.

I should be writing something sensible but I can't stop thinking of it.

Prob never going to be in a situation like that ever again.

Also I need a break from the internet.

Which is impossible.

I need a break from here and reddit. Not because of any negativity on either site, simply because both are addictive and I have a lot of work I need to get done.

Also my tutor got all defensive in body language when I said 'poems about childhood can be a bit twee but this one isn't'. I hate how NTs hate honesty that much.

I'm hoping things get better for me.

I hate google correct.

i'm hoping things get better for you, too.

If you don't like my lemons don't ask to see my meringue.

My pipe burst this morning.

Prob irresponsible to want snow for first year of living in a cabin. It's very icy out. I've heard that snow warms things a bit. And I hate ice.

I have coats, I have dressing gown, I have an electric heater (not same as central heating cos it makes my cold worse so I can't leave it on all day), I have blankets.

It would be a responsible thing to put people's minds at rest but I find things like that socially awkward. Just don't worry cos I'm fine. Aspie fine not 'fine' fine'... I hate how NTs have ruined the word fine. I'm not gonna say good. Good is not having a cold and not feeling cold and having central heating and not having to make it across an icy path to use the toilet.

But not fine is things like actual suffering which I'm not doing. I've lived in situations like this before and they're not really bad, it's just people are really pampered these days.

Not even really what I came on to say which is what a difference a week makes, suddenly someone I hated a week ago is in my good books. Interesting how things can change that way.

I'm entitled to my personal beliefs.

That deeply saddens me sir, as I can relate unto you most sincerely..

Don't let anyone try to tell or convince you otherwise..

Looking for low cost apartments as, I know such exists and I wish to remove myself from my current scenario as soon as possible within the next 12 months..