I used to trust you, and I know what you were doing, what you've been through. I've preserved from time to time and forgave every all of things you and I whatever mistakes did.
I should've been more grateful, or tearful about the idea of parting away from you and yet... I don't. I just don't at the moment. I couldn't see you as I had been then. I couldn't see those moments from before when I couldn't imagine a life without meeting you.
All I've been thinking about now was how to throw you away from my life.
This isn't the usual 'you got annoyed and I had a fit' episode. This isn't even the less usual 'I just couldn't forgive you for it' thing -- otherwise, it would've been resolved few days after.
Something just broke and it couldn't be put it together. I've been trying now for these past weeks. Last time I had discussed it with you, it just got worse. Then another time I made a one-sided thing, and wrote everything; it only made it much worse. I didn't felt relief, I only felt heavier and more upset about it.
Talking didn't worked, compromise didn't worked, being patient didn't worked, forgiving didn't do much except delay things, both our attempts on meeting half way didn't worked, and writing it out loud didn't worked either.
Putting myself in your shoes didn't worked either -- it just made it worse. There were no misunderstandings, only more impatience and getting sick with each other. Humility didn't worked either, it just got more suffocating...
All I can think about now, is throwing you out of my present and become the past. Forget those plans 'we' made for the future, forget 'our' intents, forget the idea that I'll be your equal and soon to be 'successor'.
Do you what's the most responsible thing I thought what I must do now?
It's to stay away from you after telling you what I have to say about this.
Good bye soon.
A part of me just feels sorry about it, part of me feels pain at the thought. But a part of me couldn't take it anymore.