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Just because mister redelings was homophobic, does not guarantee all of his statements and actions were wrong

Jus because Jamie Adair, Jeanne Courtney, and rain stickney were not homophobic, does not mean that all of their statements were correct

Rain told me that mister redelings was using me as a "scapegoat" and that she hoped "people" would not do so. Rain is not telepathic. Seriously doubt mister redelings knew any crossdressers besides myself. "Hoping" does not do anything.

That's the same logical fallacy as when mister redelings told me that the reason why you like to b"wear guys clothes" is because you are trying to make fun of your "dad" and you have a bad relationship with your dad. There are easier and more efficient methods to make fun of someone than crossdressing. My "dad" only took one year to come around. My "dad" later apologized. The apology was necessary but insufficient. All relationships are good, neither or bad. If everyone with bad relationships crossdressed, crossdressing would not be crossdressing.




So what?


Show your work

It was like mister redelings wrote a book about how to justify your homophobia with logic


s**t if I was normal (cisgender neurotypical extrovert), I would not worry so much about being cisgender.

And get on with "life"

Jeanne Courtney was not receptive to when I told her "mad" did not mean "angry". Even after bringing a dictionary, the b***h was like "how do you feel when people use words outside the dictionary definition?".



The b***h made it sound like she was doing me a personal favor by saying "angry" instead of "mad". But she is not "people". She is an on duty psychotherapist earning 75 bucks an hour.

Mister redelings "hurt" me ten dollars. He acted like he "helped" me one hundred dollars. He got zero. He was civil engineer 2006 San Diego


Jeanne "helped" me one dollar. She acted like she "helped " me ten thousand dollars. She got 75 bucks. She was psychotherapist 2018 El Cerrito.


"Trust versus mistrust". All in all, it makes me more reclusive


Because I don't know what precious lil "people" reject about me today, that there will be laws about ten years later, mandating the passive aggressively tolerance of


Because I am not precognitive

And I have no power over it because I am not a politician


Homophobia is a big factor in choosing friends , for me. (Fine). Jeanne Courtney correctly told me.

But there are other factors





Maybe it should be illegal to say "fa***t"


Illegal to say "what?". Say "excuse me".


Just because someone is not homophobic, does not mean that they should be your "friend"


That's like saying , it is important (to me) that my precious lil "friends" do not physically injure my worthless corpse. (Correct). However there are other requirements for being a "friend"



Maybe it should be illegal to take your dog off leash in public. (Except off leash area).


Oh that's right. Leash Law. It is illegal


"Technically illegal"




Idiots do not give a rats ass


Venn diagram


Punnett square



Robins Cafe.




f**k mister redelings



f**k Jeanne Courtney

f**k Jamie Adair

I will admit that a certain Ben Stiller movie comes to my mind but I would like to know if the name..

My mum's concerned that I need to get out of the house, and that I need to socialize. I suddenly feel like a terrible burden.

I prefer Scottish football Reddit sub to Scottish football fans on Twitter.

Twitter is dominated by our RIRA fans and their SDL fans. Hard cases. I don't know if it's keyboard warriors who don't know what they're talking about or actual dangerous people or a mix of the two but I don't want that when I'm talking football.

An interesting video review.

I can sense ppl’s vibes or whatever the most accurate term is
Today’s experiences led me to reflect


Men generally have better attitudes towards me than women (not all though)

I think bcuz they usually know i am not trying to get smthing out of them or be two faced

They take me as just an ordinary person with no hidden agenda
That makes me feel less scared of being ‘myself’ iE the way i am most comfortable

Women who are not meeting me due to kids (eg not nurses, not babysitter, not therapist)
automatically seem to have a bad vibe, and often rude, most or many
They are always looking for some sort of ulterior motive which makes me uncomfortable and tense then they interpret that as snobby or evil or other inaccurate judgements


I think bcuz they expected some unspoken behaviour tht most women show and if i dont display it they are suspicious or feel put off

Today 4 men treated me nicely and normally like a decent person And they all had good vibes

Today 1 woman gave me bad vibes and i cd sense her underlying aggression
So i tried to keep my interaction with her as minimal as possible and I cd sense the same attitude that a couple of ppl have shown before who hurt me badly and on purpose


2 women had good vibes

1 man gave me bad vibes but he always does. I know it is his own issue not mine maybe he was abused or neglected or otherwise mistreated by his mom or sisters or something
He always acts like he is alert

Having bad body language interpretation does not mean i cant tell in other ways
I can have my head down n still sense someones anger like a heat coming out of them

My dad’s eldest sister is not academically smart but one thing she has is that sense. She can tell ppl and vibes and even has dreams predicting the future in detail
Difference is she blurts it all out and everyone knows she has that
So they seek her out fr advice even though she isnt smart in other ways

Yesterday. It was a damn day yesterday.

After lunch, I had finally got an appointment to attend. A local EMT, and it shouldn't take very long then so I could return to work right after. And so I got my nose and throat checked up. One involving some form of nasal anesthetic.
When I got back to work, my EF went from 'OK' to 'WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU'. I've been pissing everyone off the whole day, and it's as if my cycle kicks in and got worse.
Am I this sensitive to certain drugs that it can be enough to ruin everything?

I don't like it. I've been saying this over and over -- I don't like being 'sensitive' in a way it affects me subtly instead of intensely. I'm already sensitive to emotions, then this...
Like how I don't accept my emotions well, I don't accept my body as much.
I fricking don't like it... This is why I cannot trust myself whenever cycles comes and goes. Why I'm so damn frustrated that even if I did restrict whatever I'm eating, it happens. Even if I'm already mindful to the point of rigidity -- something is blocking things that mattered and urging wrong things.

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Omnipotence is a summation of centuries of human history's inferiority complex regarding competition and it's place in biology/biological functioning/ontological development.

I don't have to read Alfred North Whitehead's take.

There is nothing to do all day long. That could be a good or bad thing.

Corwin keeps telling me to volunteer. But many volunteers barked at me in ways that deterred me from volunteering altogether

Risk versus reward

Socially awkward

My breasts feel large and heavy.

Idiots at aikido get on my f*****g nerves. If Kayla b***h barks at me for not paying (petty larceny ), I ain't going back

Sooner or later I could be homeless. Save $$.

"Are you ok?". Every couple of minutes. annoying . Do not call me "they". It is wishy washy. Call me "he". Do not mispronounce my name. Excessive praise is condescending. Do not bring your stupidass dog, chiropractor ozben felek b***h. Leash Law

Do not say "what". Say "excuse me".

Rolando take a f*****g shower, you slobbering idiot Every time I touch you, I get itchy.

Ricardo, Rolando, shut the f**k up


And what is "aaahahaha"


Gordon do not get a tattoo that looks like a rash. Thought it was contagious , you penis


You act so indulgent and s**t, but it's a facade. All you care about is yourself


Julian shut the f**k up. Cut your nails.


Kayla, if I am trying to leave the building early, then mind your own business, b***h

Is my son just suckling because he's bored?
Trying not to think of what's bothered me.
I don't like some things, like certain noises.

If I say 'you're old fashioned' as a euphemism for 'you're a bigot' don't come at me with 'you're new fashioned'. Especially 'you're young'. 30 isn't young I'm a millennial not generation Z.

I found a poster I'm going to hang up, in pen. Good artist.

That old picture looked weirdly good...

It pisses me off that there isn't a CSC in our town.

I spend my life thinking about a limited amount of things.

According to a book I'm reading, if you live in the west today, you're more likely to kill yourself than be killed by another person and to die of obesity than to die of starvation. Strange times. I still won't feel immortal til death is avoidable though.

I started a sonnet last night at about 11pm when I was sleepy and had to get out of bed and write it Still got it.

People probably judge me because my stepdad's 72 and I'm 30.

Also it annoys me that my stepdad thinks it's ok to pick people up and move them out of the way if they're in his way.

I'm remembering Tommy Glavine pitching for the Braves one game. He had let three runners on base. He didn't shake, he didn't back down, he didn't even sweat. He just pitched his best as he always did and struck the next batter out. I need to wake up tomorrow morning and tackle my work tasks with just as much concentration and energy as before, even if I am down a few.

I'm reading about Dizzy Dean and the Gashouse Gang now....

We are very lucky those of us who were not exploited for human trafficking
I watched enough documentaries to convince me I am in a good place as long as I study
These kids want to study

n have been brainwashed or removed frm school or kidnapped n threatened