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Why am I not ranting problems other than my own? Or tell stories about some person is (insert sympathy/rant here)? Not even positive remarks.

I'm really sorry.
But me conveying my concerns or opinions on other people just doesn't give me a sense that I respect the other people in question.
That's why I almost never talked about someone else's problems or most of my concerns other than anything to do with my own.

I just honor others that way -- by not telling their stories, and by simply seeing their stories as is, without contexts as much as possible.

I don't tell others here about some rich autistic kid whose upbringing is practically negligent, or that this side of my family had been tossing this cousin of mine around different relatives, or that aunt of mine is having this issue with her spouse and children, etc.
As much as I do not tell anyone in real life about some aspie lady who just wanted a 'normal' life and is fighting herself all because of that, or that aspie guy who is just sad to think about all because of those around him, or that one member I certainly respect and that I do wish I wanna meet this person somehow.

Things that had nothing to do with me. I won't say it outloud. I won't ever tell to another soul if one had to confide to me.

I won't tell other people's case, I won't tell other people's personalities, I won't tell what this person do or what I thought they felt.
It's like breaking a code for me, to describe others -- no matter how true or just plain assuming.
That's why, any descriptions I'd wrote had always something to do with me -- and because of that I had a part of a right to tell a story or view.

The only possible exception is a direct private confrontation as to ask of what I think about a particular person -- and said particular person barely relates to me at all.


And so just because I never wrote nor say it out loud, that doesn't mean I never seen it, never thought of it, and never felt anything toward it.

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I'm thinking about that man again that was in a relationship with me. How f**"ed up the whole thing was. How my son was born.
Wondering why? (Not about him being born, but why I did that, why my ex did that....blah)
Moving on.
Giving up on my stuff that's fake.
Keeping what makes me whole?
Still a bit confused.

Why do developers cram these duplexes and dual occupancies on 450m2 blocks? Cars parked on the literal 5m wide streets everywhere. Poverty spec size bedrooms. Needlessly strata titled 3-4 bedroom homes.
They obviously don't care that they're building the public housing of tomorrow.
And now watch as they object to my idea to put a thoughtfully picked two storey project home design on the last remaining block because "it ruins the aesthetic of the subdivision".
They just don't want it to be the best house in the worst street in 10 years time LOL.

I don’t know how to banter with people who support nobody teams

Seriously our celebrities are the best celebrities. I’m only 30 and I spend my Saturday night listening to Rod Stewart…

Most makeup isn’t art and people who think it is need to actually do real art instead

Colouring books for adults is just for relaxation and people need to leave people who do that alone and people who do that stuff need to quit taking it too seriously too

Body paint is usually art because usually they use it to look like something it isn’t

I shouldn’t have sent that poem but I meant it when I wrote it and I hate having poems sitting around

I stress about poetry but nobody actually reads my work

Nobody should treat what someone else said as their own opinion

I really don’t know what a person is beyond shallow things (physical appearance, family, wealth, clothing etc) and their opinions and nobody who says they do has ever been able to explain it to me without resorting to religion

I don’t think anyone could have a close relationship with someone else for 30 years and never bicker and it be ok

Someone today was flying a kite with Kermit the Frog on it and that was cute

It’s annoying how all my parents talk to my granddad about is TV

I’m glad I’m not on twitter cos it will be crazy right now

I’m so glad I haven’t had a smart phone in 6 years

The first proper conversation I had with my stepdad was me monologuing the plot of Bernard’s Watch to him

I love how I don’t have to pretend to have a favourite English team anymore

The thing about beaches is that you need to know all about tides and when they’re coming in or not

I’m going to have to spend my whole life looking young

I'm watching The Wizard of Oz which is an Easter tradition for me. I still get very stressed in the scene where the witch lady takes Toto in her basket. As a kid I used to run and hide in another room -- I could never watch past that scene. I just saw the scene again and I have tears in my eyes. I can't imagine someone taking my dog.

A nasty virus has gone through my house hold, but I haven't gotten it. I really do not want to get it but I don't feel like I have very good chances.

To make matters worse, our female cat got a hold of balloon ribbon. initially we tried to make her throw up, bu even with two drugs that were supposed to make her nauseous she didn't. So we opted for surgery.

They ended up pulling out 23 inches of ribbon. It had a knot tied in it so stretched out it was about 18in, but because of the knot the likelihood that I would have gotten caught up as it moved in her intestine was most likely. Not doing the surgery probably would have meant death.

She is home resting but is pretty listless. She's not ' out of the woods' yet and I just feel bad about her not feeling good.

I've told a couple people about it, it still amazes me how some people really just do not care or completely shrug off the gravity of the situation. She's a dummy, and certainly not real bright for eating balloon ribbon that was still attached to the balloon, but we love her and she's a member of the family who had a brush with death, a comment like "silly cat" seems like such a shrug off. Thanks for caring?

What it is is - it's really hard to be the good guys but ultimately we're the good guys. Everyone prefers to root for the bad guys.

I support a team founded for hungry people which to this day does work helping starving and homeless people including in London where it really ought to fall on the richer, more local clubs to do that. And nowadays we do a lot of work helping employ disabled people and helping disabled kids.

I am fed up of being made to feel bad about that. That is a good thing. It inspired me to do my own charity work which again, I'm not going to feel bad about just because I couldn't get a proper job. They're the ones who are cash obsessed, not me.

They are really bitter about our success. I am moaning on here to Americans and English and other non Scots who don't care to read this but I'm writing it out for myself as I remind to tell myself this and to remind myself to stay strong against their bs.

Success doesn't come around that often and 8 might easily be it, rather than depending on 10 I need to enjoy it now.

I wish I had a brain which didn't overanalyse everything and which knew how to filter out other people's negativity but I don't. That's why I'm reminding myself why I actually support us.

Also damn, if that neighbour doesn't know how to overdo 'banter' and tailor it to make it bitter and personal... It isn't healthy to try to break people like that. Back in the day, he did it using sectarianism, racism (which does count against Irish diaspora if you do it as hard as he does it), threats and physical violence. I don't 'look up to' him like he told me I do, I hate him for being so vile.

dyeing eggs for family who may or may not show up tomorrow.

The role Canadians have had in the history of anime dubbing from between the late 80's to the mid 90's.

I have fond memories of my younger brother saying that Kyle Massey's acting in 'Corey in the house' was basically him trying to imitate Will Smith >xD .

^ I hope she gets well soon.

People who don't have cats/pets don't get it.

10 years ago, once I've jumped out from the second floor balcony just for the heck of it. Landed on my feet, left walking only with sore heels and a laugh on my face.
Can I still do it again at this age?


I know it's not the right time for any physical recklessness, mood or not.

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