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I hate my job, but I'm not qualified to do anything else nor am I talented in any other way, so my only option is to stay with it. Boy, those people that told me that my dreams would come true if I worked on them hard enough were full of it weren't they?

I wonder if I could have a job as a massager? And what would it be like?


By many accounts so far, I'm really good at it.
My hands are the heavy and hardy types (as opposed to delicate and soft) despite doing a lot of crafting and other fine motor jobs than menial labor. But it's mostly my strength overall partially lack of built-in inhibitors. The very one why I bang a lot of doors.

Ever since as a child, it seem that only I could massage certain bodies in my relative's household -- I mean certain bodies, I mean really fat and bulky ones that needed strong hands to get through it. I'm underweight and skinny. And
I don't have any formal training.

Then I always have this weird intuition whenever I have to touch someone on sensing anatomy on the bones and muscles -- where it 'hurts', where it 'clicks', etc... Done it plenty of times on various people.

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threads about "figuring out" trigger the figure-saw connection

fretsaw for you, and a fret to you is a ferret to me,
a ferretsaw i dont know about that .. i saw a ferret saw a ferret with a fretsaw
maybe ?

The world beyond the concept of human values...

With it, I can function in the society. But one can struggle to breathe and would rather be the latter.
Without it, I can be free. But they are very vulnerable to persecutions and the harshness of those that value the former.

Many can fall on worst of both worlds, yet...
There exists in between of both best of worlds, seems only the few and exceptional could truly attain it.

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I'm wearing Lingerie, practising sword swallowing and toning my glutes in a cucumber field. Happy thots.

I mean th*t.

THOUGHT! Happy THOUGHT, I mean!

I need to be quiet cos whenever I'm honest about myself online people treat me like I'm trolling.

No, I really AM that sort of a joke.

I know what it comes from - ableism/snobbery/wanting everyone to fit a level of 'normal'. But I'm autistic. So I'm not normal.

Sometimes I'm my own brand of weird and sometimes I'm just a cliché.

And sometimes I'm completely naïve about what normal is so I ask.

I find a considerable amount of "normality" to be not worth aspiring for.

I don't mind "weird"---unless it harms me personally.

I hate it, for example, when people stand me up, or are very late.

... anyway, some of quite like Tuf's own brand of weird.

TUF would have been perfect hanging out with the Beats----except for one thing: they probably would have wanted to have sex with you (both male and female).

They were a pretty loose bunch in that sense---plus they had accompanying emotional baggage.

Thanks guys.

I think I was feeling insecure this morning. The publication helped sort that out in a way and I'm going to read some Ginsburg tonight.

I'm not 100% sorted with dad. The thing is about my dad - he was down to earth in a way mum isn't. I've had people praise my mother and condemn my dad and tell me I'm half and half over some really ordinary stuff about me. Like over my dress sense or over what sort of cafes I eat in, I like casual dress and casual places to eat. I can't deal with snooty things.

And the book of poetry I was reading felt so mature. I don't think I'll ever be that mature, let alone write about being that mature.

I think you're right, Kraftie. I don't always write like a Beat but I'm influenced by them a lot and prefer reading that sort of wild thing.

I keep certain things off here. But basically, if I ever get with a guy again, it will be a guy who accepts me like I am and a relationship which doesn't seem as conventional as the ones I've tried to force myself into in the past. I find dating at fancy restaurants boring and dressing up as a conventionally feminine woman physically uncomfortable/like fancy dress.

Wanting to visit my school's gym now because I did not had any time before class today to do so.

Japanese animation has been aware of something more or less like this for how long?..

http://www.bestinfographics.info/the-cute-character/

..but doesn't not have as many reservations for characters designed that way to be in lurid situations.