What's on your mind right now?

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Sometimes, I wanna be a visual artist.
Sometimes, I wanna be a secretary.
Sometimes, I wanna be a craftswoman.
Sometimes, I wanna be a nurse.
Sometimes, I wanna have spiritual pursuits and maybe give up stuff eventually.
Sometimes, I wanna take business and managerial.
Sometimes, I wanna be a programmer and go study technology.
Sometimes, I wanna be a writer and a story teller.
Sometimes, I wanna know more about household stuff like carpentry, wiring, and plumbing.
Sometimes, I wanna know how to be a housekeeper.
Sometimes, I wanna part take advocacy.
Sometimes, I wanna build another network of contacts or revive my old ones.
Sometimes, I just don't know anymore.

I'm so damn confused I wanna stick to one thing at the time yet I couldn't seem to.
These stuff just comes to me, like any emotions would -- except there's little to no explanation why, there's no trigger only a thought of an urge that never lasts. Could be my subconscious for all I know, and these are my 'wishes' left unfulfilled.

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I hate those who tell me they wish me well but at the same time cut off contact with me. I feel like they are lying to me.
I'd rather they just tell me to f**k off because that is really what they feel about me.

^ You can still wish someone well and not want them in your life - especially if you have a disorder , or they have a disorder or you both do

What's on my mind? Hours and Hours of Chinatown music from The Revenge of Shinobi.

that's a funny subject.
I grew up during doing martial arts in the 80s, and remember going to an arcade to play
the original Shinobi game.

And when the original and first Sega Mega system came out
i brought it because Shinobi was the one of the first games ported for it.

I remember playing other classics at the arcade too. such as Double Dragon. Karate Champ,
Rolling Thunder, Mr. Do (dug dug), Gauntlet.
Great fun.

The Pink Dragon

Giving myself time to study for finals which are next Wednesday.

Past 8AM; and got my 2nd cup of coffee. The same stuff.

Now I'm having the usual reactions. Huh.

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Extroverts are the bane of my existence

Happiness and laughter are overrated

Happiness is not magic, mystery

Happiness is not even superior to sadness

Sad and angry are not bad, wrong, or tabboo

The psychiatrist receptionist asked if I had feelings of sadness. sadness?

So idiots can get more clients and more $$$

The Access Line gave me the psychiatrist phone number and an authorized number

Phoned yesterday and today

No answer

Left message

Lemmie guess:. The authorization number expires in one week.

The psychiatrist doesn't have to answer the phone or return the call

Smothering

Indulgent and manipulative


My only friend asked me why I wrapped my hands in sleeves

Itchy

Aikido

We've been through this ad nauseum

Annoying


She acted like she was trying to make conversation




Then she asked about shoes and backpack


its like, shut the f**k up



Extroverts, Energizer Bunny

Warren too

Maybe if I were a skinny smart handsome cisgender neurotypical white man


I would have more energy





The penis is so annoying

It just cooked potstickers

It knows I just finished eating



It keeps offering immediately after I finish eating

Pressure

Tempted

Ass hole

It kicks me out of the bathroom

It says "ha" instead of "excuse me"









"Life" going nowhere as usual






f**k structural engineering

The prisoners' dilemma

Hmm...

If there's a mantra to go forward to..?
"How does this benefit me?"
Or...
"I'm going to die so might as well make it worth it."



Not sure if I can afford either.
Not even sure if I can recall any of these, or claim the reminder significant after a day or so later.

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teachin' meself how to play "rickety-tickety-tin" on the baritone ukulele, croaking the lyrics along with my playing, and getting good enough so people won't throw rocks at me when i try it in public.

People hurt other people for no reason.

I am afraid of being hurt by other people.

This is on my mind right now