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Happy Birthday, Grace.

You're really getting up there

Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday.

Happy Birthday.




Happy birthdays. Of many within less than 10 min now.



Regardless...

Happy Birthday.

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I'm going to miss my son.
I'm probably leaving soon to another state to try to get my life together.

I sincerely hope I can do this.
My biggest thing to learn is how to cope.
And to be confident with myself.
And, my love for my son should move me further to protect myself and others.

I pray that God gives me Grace to be imperfect.

I never knew I'd be like this, having to face my life and stand while moving forward.

I've never had this circumstance where
I love and have to do my best to keep my love and what's with it (my son).

What s—ks about not really being too socially active is that even ppl you might be getting along with might (b/c of their appearance) remind you sharply of someone who gave you a hard time and you try to shrug it off.

The insurance told me that I had, to make an appointment for primary care physician, to get psychiatrist referral

The appointment was one month later

Finished

Doctor told me to call a phone number

Did that. It told me that it would call back in 48 hours.

Once the phone starts ringing, I have about seven seconds to answer

Usually fail

Not all locations have reception

Sometimes it's noisy

Idiots just decide to scream at that minute

And then the caller squeaks "what?"

Calloused ass hole

Finally got through to the Access Line

It gave me the psychiatrist phone number

Called three times on three different days

Left msg

Today it called when I was was in the library

Ass holes



Don't know how far in advanced it is booked

f**k Contra Costa health plan

Kaiser is better

You get what you pay for



Kaiser is more expensive





Felt like gorging a lot recently

Bowel movement, rocks




Ghrelin and leptin

Ssri

s**t I am totally not survival of the fittest


Warren and mister redelings and professor Todd are fit for survival




Sooner or later, bad things will happen and I will cope badly




Brain damage


Whatever MRI $$$$$ and doctor too lazy to do it



Accomplish nothing


Achieve


Like doctor etcheverry


Feel invisible


Happiness is overrated

Happiness is not magic or special

Happiness is not even superior to sadness


Warren laughs uproariously at things that are not the slightest bit funny


Dr told me to, "try" to eat less


Try and fail


s**t


Things I "tried" to do:

Structural engineering






Tired of this s**t


No stupidass " friends"


Eating even more than usual



Suspect brain chemical imbalance

I really really want to believe in karma and for people who have hurt me to get what they deserve.

My Mom lived for 25,363 days. This year I will reach 18,000 days of life.

why do 'we' need 'communities'?
a typical word i hate, as those c--s always hold secret rules that exclude

idk if you ask for 'communities' it shows imo you never were aut and(or) excluded
but the other fishy point issssssssssssssss why are those instigators all ieeewish??
really

Page number sucks.

I figured out if I'm just blunt on CAH online I get more points and more respect than if I pretend to be a Nazi when I'm not.

Women's world cup starts now Managed to persuade my stepdad to watch it.

I need to spend my day more productively than just playing CAH and answering Ask Reddit questions.

The poem I'm trying to write right now is too hard. I need a fresh angle.

I'm at work and people are making me feel anxious.

^Hugs. I'm at work at a supposed to be holiday and no one's here. Strangely that also makes me anxious in a different way since i don't know what i'm supposed to do.

I try not to bring up football here anymore but this is about fitting in or not...

I don't want to be an uncle Timmy.

But I'm being forced into that role.

What is forcing me into it is rejection from my own side because I told the truth.

That other side is never going to accept me 100%. I'm just their pet at the moment.

Only thing that wins me approval with our side at the moment is being more Republican/Antifa than anyone else. That isn't fair. I shouldn't always have to bring up politics. Yes my views are far left but why can't they trust me with football stuff?

If I wanted to talk about Republicanism all the time I'd go on Twitter. At least all the rebs bands are on there.

And no, we're not a British team. We're an Irish team based in Scotland.