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Rafael Nadal-yes!

Should have taken Kaiser

At Kaiser, if you email a doctor, a doctor answers. You can email any doctor. Everything is in one building

At Contra Costa health plan, if you email a doctor, a nurse answers. You can only email one doctor. The psychiatrist appointment is hard to make

Reasons to go to pride tomorrow:
1 it's pride
2 nice food
3 tolerant people in terms of grsm stuff
4 maybe nice girls there... I'm not going just to hit on women but it's nice that I won't be the only one there who fancies women
5 if people didn't go to pride, it wouldn't exist. Same as with voting. There's a sort of 'duty' there

Reasons not to go to pride tomorrow:
1 it's going to rain
2 nobody will go with me and I have social anxiety
3 my auntie is coming tomorrow and my energy levels aren't that high and I think we're going to a play in the evening as well
4 mum is ill and idk if my stepdad is caring enough to take care of her. He says some really nasty things and had to be persuaded by me to call the doctor.

Wanting to visit my school's gym before class starts in about one hour from now.

Rafael Nadal is in the French Open final.

Dominic Thiem currently leads Novak Djokovic.

That boy from last Thursday at the library sat at the computer next to me

He asked, where I hang out nearby

shrugged


While I don't want to be calloused and rude, I get paranoid

You don't know what felonies he got convicted of

Sure as f**k don't want that boy going looking for me



Which brings up the question:. How does someone make friends?

Activities $$$$

And I don't like doing anything and I am not good at anything





Job interview

Kia car dealership accounting clerk uneventful

finally got psychiatrist

Dead end "life"


Some people claim that they are glad that their suicide attempt was failure because "life" got better


My "life" got better, but ambivalent about suicide


Still homophobia

Autism

Constant anxiety




Most precious lil "people" act judgmental, arrogant and entitled


Even when they are being nice

Too many pet peeves


Nobody has to be your friend

That is not "discrimination"

If mister redelings doesn't like girls that wear boys clothes, fine




"Favortism" implies authority



Extroverts too loud and enthusiastic

Especially Warren


Who cares about structural engineering?


Plenty of people on wrong planet, claim they are unemployed or underemployed

Including electrical engineering and computer science

STEM


And graduate degree


Maybe I will be homeless





Exhausted all day long


Nothing bad happened today

And I didn't do anything hard

Idiots comment my sagging pants

Sensory processing dysfunction


Superficial and materialistic

"Life" can only get worse not better



Menial labor

Minimum wage jobs

No friends

sometimes to make friends, you have to be brave, to take a chance, to "reach out of the darkness." nothing ventured, nothing gained. not that i'm anybody to talk, though.

That’s a song called “Reach out in the Darkness” by Friend and Lover.

... How does one describe when the usage of words are becoming more and more... Unnatural? Not necessarily more difficult, but more like straining or painful.
It's like, losing the sense of pattern and concept behind the surface of the symbol.

It's just I can recall the vocabularies, but not the spellings, the whole definition and the usual sense of direction of those definitions. I have to recheck all over.
And it feels like I'm operating on a more manual like level, and it also feels getting more awkward with it.

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Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

evening with the boomers, idk why im a boomer too, im sooo past the cottonfilled goodintentions

rofl, ohyeah facebook too ehh

hi, mymiddlename is anything "neoplatonist" only, but they don't know what happened?

and whatalotof namedroppings, it will never cease to amaze me how people are eager to find mystifications first and foremost, oh nuns and monk schools, does that lead to superiority by superstition?

My ear hurts, my son, ex's cruelty, my brother and sister-in-law taking my son for temporary custody, getting him back, courage, moving to another state, meeting someone I have never seen in person, my son ....

Extroverts act like they have an hourly talking quota

Daily talking limit

Flap their trap

Dead end

Going nowhere

Court mandated financial reparations

It's too hard to compete with neurotypical extrovert for job

Ass holes

They act as they are being friendly by talking to you, but annoying

You don't have to compete for friends

But it is, more or less, a two way street

They don't have to be your friend


Mister redelings' inner social circle, is not, subject to racial quota. Lowell high school


Microcosm

Homophobia is not illegal

If it were, only a civil lawsuit could enforce

Tennis-both watching and playing

Also, my perennial favorite thing-cats!