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People on Ask Reddit downvoted me for criticising paedos, slave owners and men who lock their wives up at home. People really need to know that is not a good look. Freaks.

Sometimes I do think having emotions is unhealthy for me, like at all. It shouldn't be something I must keep minding.
It's not just the bad ones like pain and sadness. It could include knowing the feeling of emptiness, or the lack of presence of something that should be felt.


It's just easy to seek support and ask about the struggles of external stimuli, since those things are more concrete. Solid. 'Real'.
Hard of hearing? Get a hearing aid. Can't stand lights? Put a some sunglasses. Don't like crowds? Get a room. Itchy? Either avoid trigger or get some alcohol.

But having even lesser internal filters, threshold and tolerance than external ones... How could I ask the question for it, without making it sound like it overlaps with a common yet unrelated problem?
I cannot 'cover' myself from my own body, I cannot 'hide' and 'get away' from my own body, I also cannot turn THE.DAMN.THING.OFF.OUT.OF.MY.MIND. For years now.

Tried 'accepting' it; only to clash with another, making it worse, making my internal being more chaotic than it should. The 'exercises' and solutions I knew so far would only temporarily helped me.
But that's just it, temporary -- and the root of that problem is tied to another bigger problem, a problem that gets worse with emotions.

Sometimes I wish can only think, and not feel anything beyond the basic needs.

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I've been waiting for a court hearing to start for 2 hours and i'm about to go crazy from boredom!

i really dislike being anywhere near that mess.

He is.

Accomplish something

Hobby

Friend

Job

Going nowhere in "life"




Smothering or angry

Condescending


Idiots look so happy

Talk and laugh much and too loudly and there are too many of them


Happiness is not magic

Happiness is overrated

Happiness is not essential for global area functioning

Happiness is not even superior to sadness




Penises act like they have a moral right to be happy at all times



Too moody

Warren laughs at things I don't find funny

Laughter relaxes someone

Unless you are laughing at someone

But not that many things are funny

They are not that funny

Nor should they be





Rolando Morales penis daughter seraphina

About 11

Blue belt in aikido

b***h

This is not children class

Jealous

Although Rolando Morales penis is annoying

When you like an online chat going on and you imagine the person having an appealing voice (think female fans of K.J. Apa while he is doing an American accent).

For the record this is my unappealing southern Ontario, urban Canadian accent in English and Spanish saying what is supposedly ~'the world's shortest novel':

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGKCez0VFu8

Ways not to panic because my finals are this Wednesday at 2 PM.

Cookie dough ice cream

In five more months I will be 55.

How to expand comfort zone

Write a book

Neuroplasticity

Accomplish something

Lose weight

ADHD

Ghrelin and leptin, serotonin and dopamine

Friends, fun, work, hobby

Got no future

No past

Time travel

Grudges

No hope

Breasts reduction surgery

Itchy ears

Discharge

Loner, loser, lost cause

Beyond repair

No hope

Depressed as f**k

Warren is "survival of the fittest"

I am not fit for survival

up too GD late yet again. ate a fake-meat sandwich with gluten-free bread. begin my nightly 16 hour fast.

Graceful degradation

On the decline

False hope

Grudge

Angry

Annoyed

Hate how I have to "pick your battles"

Because idiots have more resources than me

Time, money, energy, authority, IQ , whatever

Every interaction is a competition where the party with more resources wins


Logic, legality, morality, and factual accuracy don't matter


If someone tries to take my purse, and they have more resources than me, they win a purse. And I lose a purse


If I win, nothing happens


If someone frames me for a felony, and the prosecutor is more $$$$$ than the public defender, I could get sent to jail

Constant paranoid


Even a court of law, is just a competition

Vulnerable


A biology instructor accused me of stealing his visor. Even after I found the visor, no apology or "thank you". Just "have a nice day"

He did not civil lawsuit or 911, but he could have


I get uptight someone will frame me for a felony

Vivid imagination

But you can't prepare per se

Because of have a diagnosis in writing


Still have to get a job


Because when the prosecutor asked, where were you on December 5 , 7am, answer,. Work. Timesheets


The answer is not, walking on the street


Still I could not afford a $$$ lawyer

Lawyers $$$600 hour

Lawsuits take two years

Outcome not guaranteed



Even better, Work Furlough program



Yeah I am paranoid


Maybe every gets accused


Making a mountain out of a molehill



But , be prepared


Autism makes it easier to get framed up

No character witness


Bad nonverbal communication

Autistics are especially vulnerable in jail










Or maybe I am just flattering myself, that someone would waste so much time money and energy, on me, as to get me framed up and prosecuted



Sometimes the defendants gets the "guilty" verdict. And the verdict is wrong


This is, by far, my greatest fear.




Or fantasy


Same thing

My hobbit clone's clone.