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iPhone photography, whether I should take a nap later even though I slept plenty last night, how often it's okay to go on a huge trip outside the country, and working towards financial independence by the time I'm in my mid-twenties.

moving around the twentieth as long as the escrow makes it through(last one didn’t). there are a few days between movers taking everything, and the flight, that sound difficult for having to stay in a hotel with father and his wife with nothing of interest to do but studying, and handwriting practice... would like to get into japanese calligraphy someday.

Phone job interview today. It was uneventful.
Alphalist accounting temp agency.

Two phone interviews tomorrow

One phone interview Wednesday

One in person interview Thursday

Cold f**k

Doctor kept telling me to get a counselor

But counselors are so full of themselves

Akanksha asked me if I felt "good about yourself every day"

You should not be feeling good about yourself any more than you should be feeling bad about yourself

Dr etchiverri asked, in the past two weeks, how often have you felt sad

Wtf?

What does "sad" mean?

Sad is not a catastrophe

If yesterday I got evicted, expelled, canned, hit by a car, then sad is justified


Some things are sad


It does not make sense to ask how often you were sad, unless you also ask intensity duration and context


That's like saying, yesterday I ate ten times. Each time, one hundred calories. You are one time, two thousand calories



Happiness is overrated

I'm very lonely.

I blame having to charge my phone.

I'm thinking of my boy.
I'm tired and scared.
Trying not to think of my ex ...

Wondering if I should try to make things better or stepping back (regarding a potential relationship)

... Almost unwearable footwear. That I happened to be the only one I have to use for my long walks. It lasts for over 2 years now.
Couldn't find anything similar.

Anything else may broke under my feet after few weeks worth of trips or so. Or worse.
Because that's literally just happened few days ago. I broke at least 2 pairs this week alone.

Sigh.

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

I really need to quit worrying over if he liked me or not considering he was the one who had his shorts pulled up higher and higher every time I looked and he was the one who started touching back. He was teasing.
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Lack of social media response bothers me
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Nobody on here actually talks which is all it is
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Also a fair few people on here are conservative
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They shouldn't be let upstairs cos it's getting to point where whenever they go upstairs they end up crushing each other and they're zombies not dominoes
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Nichola is better than Boris
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Treating any downvote on a wind up thing as an upvote
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The guy in Burger King didn't want to serve me
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I wonder why he hated pigeons so much lol
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Pretty sure it's banned to call someone 'dirty Irish'
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He served me last out of a queue of 10 when I was the first in the queue of 10 that's really bad
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Today:
1 unpack
2 draw picture

So what, I don't know how to talk about depression

Neither does the Diagnosic statistical manual



"Feelings of hopelessness "?

False hope is not morally superior to no hope

"Feelings of guilt"? Verdicts are "guilty" and "not guilty". "Innocent" is not even a verdict

"Loss of interest in activities"? Never had interest in the first place

So can't lose interest

"Withdrawal from family and friends"
Ain't got none

So nothing to withdraw from


Talking about depression is not necessary to get better

You are always getting better, the same or worse

Pulitzer prize

My brain tends to find similarities between two seemingly different topics

Most lil dipshits can't follow

They act like I am mentally ill and intellectually challenged

Zoloft

Tried and failed to bowel movement. One hour. Last night

Zoloft side effects

But no other side effects yet

Happiness is overrated

Itchy as f**k in aikido

f**k Rolando Morales penis

Ass hole had the nerve to ask me "why are you tensing?"

Pain receptors

How about "why are you sweating"?

Surgically remove his vocal cords

Put a muzzle on it


My stupidass "friend" gets on my nerves

She's so melodramatic

"Being sick is the worst"




She acts so sad when she's sick


Like she doesn't expect it


She explicitly asked me what "people" do, that gets on my nerves

Answered


She keeps doing it anyways


Enthusiastic

I'm loving the person that i have become. Years ago, i could never imagine i could accept myself even with my bad parts and my father too.
I may not have everything in order in my life but i have a good relationship with myself and i feel this is the most important. Sometimes i even want to start something (i have no idea what) to help the autistic people in my country since there's so little help available. But there's still so much prejudice towards disabled people here even among the so called "educated" people. And i don't want my father to learn about it too.

^^^

I’ve said some pretty awful things before on the Internet. Done with anonymous forum websites other than WP, because I can’t control my mouth (or fingers, technically lol).

Coffee is delicious. I like it more for the taste than the caffeine now, honestly. Once you drink enough coffee, you start to think it tastes good.

I have two places right now, my college dorm and my parents’ house for the summer. Why did I choose to stay on campus just sometimes over the summer, waste of money and space.

About to eat my breakfast of oatmeal with hemp protein. It looks like dog food but it’s good for you.

I care about the environment, but I’m too preoccupied to do everything that needs to be done. Most I can handle is reducing my carbon footprint but still living mainstream, picking up litter, reusing, and recycling. Living alternatively and getting political is not doable right now.

Simply doing my best, and trying not let Decepticons get in my way..

Wondering if I am really any better than I was years ago because, for all the changes and improvements in my life, some things have stayed the same.