theprisoner wrote:
Yeah i am sensitive to sound. i prefer quiet, but noise tolerance is decent, if varying. (a passage from a schopenhaur book comes to mind.) I do hate noise, when i'm physical stressed/tired, i can react to it viscerally. I guess the key then is to be at ease, to relax. But then everybody nervous systems have different thresholds of tolerance, that are unique.
My noise tolerance is weird even for people with misophonia. It's the small niggling sounds that get to me, like crinkling packages, anything squeaking, footsteps, heartbeats, breathing noises, even a distant or too-quiet radio which forces my brain to strain for comprehension instead of just ignoring it. Loud noises are generally OK and even loud music, as long as I'm in the mood for music.
Conversation is hard for me because human voices and verbal question / answer get on my nerves. I can't process my thoughts fast enough to respond in real time or with the expected facial gesture / tone of voice. I always end up oversharing or not saying enough, and either way I mess it up. I had a speech-language pathologist until June this year but that ended in disaster so now I just avoid talking as much as possible unless I'm with a couple of very select people.
Yesterday I couldn't do noise at all, not even music - but I made the conscious decision to have a chat with my mother. It felt pretty good afterward, so I guess there's always hope.
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