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talking heads conflating advice with bragging again?
the empathethetic lead role in the years of lead
instigative politics
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Car alarm went off. Frantically pushed buttons. It stopped but not because I did something correct. It just happened to stop. A couple of months ago, the window would not work. Hence reluctant to drive too far or whatever s**t. Also some idiots drove in ways that made it hard to avoid crashing. f**k those ass holes.

Endorphins, adrenaline, relief, despair

Just glad no car crash today

Feel much better after jog

Gained a lot of weight and slow and heavy and old but whatever s**t

"Life" goes on

Pharmacy, prescription, pick up, easy

Thank Buddha

f**k mister redelings

Today was much colder than yesterday

Comfortable

Two kit Kats

Too much sugar, fat, carbs, sugar

Lying on the carpet reading novel about ballerina

Menstrual cycle was pretty light

Thank Buddha



Testosterone ran out

Shot uncomfortable

Don't know if injection correct

Inject into fat, not muscle

Clothes don't feel tighter

Proprioception

Baggy clothes

Nothing to do all day long

No potential

being clean

I just remembered something silly and embarrassing.
In high school I took a music history class. We listened to a few things by Franz Schubert.
I became weirdly enamored with him and wrote him a few letters.

Who even does that.
I should probably delete this.

Some people on here are really dedicated to spreading hate.



Losers.

_________________
"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Want higher testosterone prescription

Six shots

Voice same, hair same, head shape same,


period a little lighter

s**t impatient

Head still looks like a woman


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Not interested in anything

That could be a sign of depression but that is just the usual so whatever


Skin feels wierd and itchy

Rolando Morales penis
Carpet
Rain
Polyester
Period
Bowel movement
Weight gain


Cold f**k


Saw two prepubescent boys in ballet uniform

Times have changed

back starting to bark at me again.

Reality.

Futility.

False Hope.

Why is everything I like so wrong? Just a few weeks ago someone on aspie Forums asked what connection, if any, between being a cartoonist and a pedophile.

When I was a kid, my ability to draw cartoons was admired and encouraged by many people. But now that I'm am adult in the 21st century the same very thing I harmlessly enjoy is going to make people think I'll molest their children, when I would really much rather avoid the little crotch goblins as much as possible.

Well, maybe they won't, because I'm not a man. But I'm not thin, blonde, still in my 20's and stunningly beautiful, either. If a woman like that molests children, all the straight males reply how they *want* her to "molest" them.

I really am on the wrong planet.

I've decided that i'm not going to continue the criminal justice course. I can't see myself working in criminal law and i don't want to expose myself as someone with anxiety. I've already endured so much anxiety today.

It seems that what I need to do to get the assistance I need is age about 50 years. As it stands, my options are either more help than I need (and probably qualify for) or less help than I need - and I'll be lucky to even find that little bit of help. Wondering if I should give up hope on getting to live even semi-independently anytime even remotely soon, if maybe my only feasible option is to keep living with my parents for the foreseeable future (which means if I want clean surroundings, most likely I have to get them clean in the first place and then work alone to keep things clean, because no one else will do it even though my parents both admit it needs to be done - if I'm lucky, once things are clean, they'll stay clean for about a week before everyone else starts slacking on it again. I'm fine with keeping my own place clean. What I'm not fine with is having to clean up everyone else's messes and then maintain the whole house myself when there are three other people living here.).

^ I hear that. It's astonishing to realize I'm not the only one in that situation. I keep my room clean, and the kitchen (because I need to be able to use it) - but otherwise I accept that my family prefers clutter.

The usually loudest part of me had been rather quiet since then...

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

upset at KING-TV5 [seattle] as their over-the-air reception has disappeared, and they won't answer my emails asking for the reason, nor will they answer their phone. this is NOT "serving the public interest." complaint to the FCC follows...

Bed 11 pm to 7:30 . Kind of late, for me

Lethargic

Overcast. Felt like, blah

Fe fi fo fum

Like, whatever

Did not want to do anything today all day long s**t

Trader Joe's hummus veggie wrap, kit Kat, milk, sushi

Saw doctor Butler at El Cerrito plaza


The idiots that go to the library, almost every single day , were annoying when they plugged in their phones next to the charger that I was sitting next to. Ass holes

Activated credit card, by pay phone

Finally s**t


Waste $$$


Read book

The penis keeps hogging the bathroom

f**k that ass hole


Scheduled phone interview for 4pm today. Pay phone . He said he was busy and call back Monday at 5. Which I thought was ok but doctor appointment s**t


Ass holes



Glad car alarm went off


Mumbo jumbo



Going nowhere s**t