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Midday blues. Got hit in the face, lol. My fault there. They always make the mistake in the zombie stuff that they'd be weak (at least early on). Without neuromuscular inhibition, humans are very, very strong; that inhibition is there so you don't break bone, tear tissue apart and so on.

Thinking about other stuff, I never felt discarded by society like many of the others as I never felt a part of it to begin with.

Smiling sets off the TN, but I'll keep on smiling.

Anxiety

Conspiracy Theorists.

Laptop decided to randomly delete a bunch of saved logins and passwords because hey why not.

My Tamagotchi died for no reason.

Apparently I look like the dude from "The Ghost and Mrs. Muir" (had to look that one up, and sorta). Yeah, focusing on those funny things during those bad things.

It's easier to be negative (still gonna say PERM sucks and people shouldn't have to suffer in such a way).

I was getting dinner out of the freezer, the frozen meal flew out of the freezer, it went on the floor, I bend over to pick it up, I fell down on my butt, I could not get up, I was crying, cuz I broke my ankle in the kitchen 3 & half years ago, I didn’t have upper body strength, it took me around 15 minutes to get up. My knees are sore, my upper arm hurt too. My knee been really hurting almost all week.

Reading some old life things and how nonchalant I was about it all back then. Not really a fan of that person. I guess you really do change as you age. Maybe who I am now is the person I've been looking for. It's also interesting seeing it change over the years and lead into a rather recent breakdown, which ends up being closer to who I am now.

Anxiety

Imahe na... Yun'.

Gained Number Post Count (1).
Lose Time (n).

Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

So much snow

Phone calls tomorrow

To be fair, sometimes you need to talk about things, and mentioning them when brought up is sorta how I go, and when no one knows me and they never will, it's far easier there. Being blunt makes sense. Though, as time goes on, you do sorta lose that inclination, and you'd rather not be associated with it all. I'd rather be how I am now though (when said things are there bothering me). Just group stuff. You need to let go of some things if you want to heal, as it affects you constantly if you don't.

Showing my face (avatar now and again), as he sometimes hasn't been that nice a person (along with past stuff there affecting how I see myself).

All memories it seems.

Those in authority who abuse that authority to launch personal attacks on people through the use of lies\disinformation, showing their complete lack of impartiality in the process (fortunately recorded before the attempted cover-up occured).

Here's one that happened a while ago, but it annoyed me just now thinking about it...

Someone I worked with asked if I'd serve as a reference in their job search, but almost immediately withdrew the request and said they'd use someone they knew longer than me, which means they chose a personal reference instead of a professional one. I was the best professional reference they had in their one-job career, that they were still on good terms with. I would have explained to them that a professional reference was going to be a lot more useful, but I didn't bother, because if they have no faith in my ability to serve in that capacity then what's the point?

How much disdain do you have to have for someone to pass them up as your best professional reference?

They've since, but not in time for that position, which they didn't get, come to good terms, or so they think, with someone else they could possibly use as a reference. I'd explain to them why that person hates me, because it applies to them, too, but what would be the point? I'd suggest they pay closer attention to said person's facebook feed, to their lack of interaction on that platform, and that I've unfriended them, but what would be the point?

Speaking of above two people, the one who would not have me as a reference told me once that they had stood up for me while other above-mentioned person bad-mouthed me, but she also said something particularly hateful right to my face and supposed ally heard it and never said anything, at the time, or to me to acknowledge it. That they'd ever befriend this person never sat well with me.

Oh, yeah. Person that hates me terminated my health insurance, and then gave me notice two weeks after the fact that they had done so. After I'd been to the doctor. Another thing that makes me unhappy today, lol.