Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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^Hugs.I miss you too I think i have become a workaholic, keep thinking and stressing about work all the time

^

I'm in PM burnout -- not writing much or often to people.
It's easy to post because it doesn't require as much emotion.

You can message me any time and I'll try to reply.
Just know I miss you and I'm always wishing you the best.

^ I know what you mean, its easier to post in whatever thread seems interesting at the time.
PM requires expressing yourself more accurately, more concentration etc.
I am often drained when i come home from work so i prefer to just stare at the screen, cant find the energy to do anything else. My colleagues have covid so they can't come to work and it makes double the responsibility for me too. I am also thinking of you too, and hope life is good to you.

Anxiety

So much to do. I am overwhelmed.

I'm so intensely stressed out that I want to self harm. I don't think that I will, but I still hate having the urge to do that.

Hoping you feel better, Hero. ^


The back door of my house is frozen shut again.
Meaning, I can't let my dog out.
My car is still broken in the driveway.
It's snowed in and I can't get it out for repair.
I'm thinking of doing an all-nighter to shovel.
It will be warmer in the day but I can't tolerate snow in daylight.
I can be sued if I don't do it by Monday morning.
I wish I could tolerate wearing gloves, socks, or coats when I shovel.
I'll be out there in a tshirt when it's ten below zero.
Plus I have a headache.
But whatever, I'm not actually that sad.
I'm just tired of being so ... me.


Oh look. More snow this week.
How wonderful.

^ How long are you guys supposed to continue to have snow? I hope it starts to get warmer there soon so you don't have to keep dealing with it.

Have to spend Monday and Tuesday preparing for yet another inspection

I kinda wish it was several years ago at a specific point in time and I was me then, but alas, life.

Loved one stuff also, but yeah. She's had a lot of that bad luck too. Funny thing is, she was going to "hire" me as a PI when I was mostly broken until life did life things to her all the same, and took away her dreams.

Anxiety

Anxiety

Thanks Hero. I hope you're feeling better too. I came to this thread to check in and see how you are today.


I tried to shovel overnight but it was frozen solid. The snowplow had gone past and pushed a really big hill of snow onto the end of the driveway, and it froze too. I hate that the city can push snow and ice onto our property and we have to just deal with it somehow, or else we are stranded in our homes. I tried all day to hire someone to come and clear it with a snowblower but no one answered. So, we're still stuck.

It's supposed to snow nearly all week, quite heavily at times. It's not above zero for quite some time.

The good news is I got my back door to open, so at least there's that. In the meantime I can still get sued for not clearing the snow by tomorrow morning, I still can't take my car for repair, and I can't get any deliveries because no one can drive onto the property.

For this I get to pay exorbitant land taxes.

So much fun.

^ Do you have a Home Owners Association in the neighbourhood that you live in, or is the city the one that'll sue you? The fact that you can get in financial trouble over that is absolutely bonkers. I feel like that shouldn't be a thing due to the possibility that someone could have a disability and not be able to clear the snow, though no one seems to really give a crap about people w/ disabilities...

It's Canada Post who could sue me, because the letter carriers have to work regardless of the weather (rain or shine), and they could slip and fall on my property. I get door-to-door delivery so I have to have my door available within 12 hours of a snowfall. I get weekends off from shovelling, because there's no mail delivery on weekends.

There is some financial assistance available for disabled people who get benefits from the province. You use the money to hire contractors but the contractors need to be hired in the autumn, for the whole winter, at one lump price which is usually huge. If it doesn't snow, you lose your money. I'm not eligible for this anyway, because I don't get provincial disability benefits. My benefits are federal, because I worked and paid into them for many years like a pension plan. People who get federal benefits aren't eligible for any type of assistance as disabled homeowners. It's ridiculous. I worked nearly thirty years and paid income tax, and land tax, and paid into disability, but I get cut off from help because of it.

My daughter gets provincial benefits but we can't get help through that, either. She would need to be the homeowner, which she isn't. If I transfer the house into her name, she loses her benefits.

It's a marshmallow world here. No one would believe it unless they walked in my shoes.

We were also ineligible for any Covid stimulus money because apparently disabled people are the only human beings in the country to be excluded.

You weren't even able to get stimulus money because you guys are disabled? That's legit f****d up.

I'm sorry that you guys are treated like that and kept out of so many forms of assistance. I'd be pissed too if I worked for that long and paid into those same programs, and then got nothing for all of it.