Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Anxiety

So much drama at work and for some reason everyone wants to talk to me about it. I feel like a therapist.

my shoulder hurts
no clue what I did to it

Anxiety

Seeing someone lose things. You blame yourself for it, of course.

The trigeminal neuralgia is playing up today (something like 1 in 3 get PTSD from it, which is absurdly high. That's alright, I already have that. I guess severe pain will do that to a human). Well, it's always playing up, but the intensity differs day to day. Good distraction from the emotional pain though. Broken record here in more than one way.

Worried about someone (L&C stuff), but I'm sure it's all fine in that context; negative voice stuff being the unhappy, but then, the happiness of said someone is the important thing here.

Anxiety

Still have covid after ten days and I have no energy. Keep getting bursts of anxiety.

Anxiety

My mom being a perfectionist once again.

Every time I see where I relapsed and self harmed it makes me mad at myself.

People who let their emotions take over their rationality.

Anxiety

The first time you disappeared from what I thought was an important conversation, I thought I had offended you, and I apologized. You (some other day, of course) said you weren't offended, you were just distracted or something.

That was bad enough. If we'd been talking about TV programs or something, I'd understand. But I was over-sharing something or another, thinking I was talking to someone who was supportive and interested, and you apparently found it not interesting enough to hold your attention.

But it's worse than that, isn't it? I've come to know this kind of thing as intentional devaluing. You WANTED me to know you were uninterested, didn't you?

Rain and cold outside today.

There was a comedy of errors today that led to a wonderful meltdown where I will have another black eye and headache for a day or so (no bother with headache, but the eye is obvious). Yeah, I'm not much of a fan of a disrupted routine and things not going as planned, but this was just one step after another failing and utter cruelty to someone with Autism and moderately bad executive dysfunction. Hang on, I'll count. Too many. I completed the task which I guess I should be happy for.

I got another one of those someone feeling sad for me hugs. I don't like the reason, but I'll take it.

Rain