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So the cold war never actually ended...

I'm stupid

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^^no stupider than me, bud

Unwanted text message make me nervous, scared, edgy, shaky , even though the penis told me it's ok s**t

Checked bank account. Nobody took cash out of it . Thank Buddha

Felt like gorging out of control as usual every single day s**t




Neuropsychological evaluation today

Been looking forward to it for four f*****g weeks s**t


"Much Ado about nothing"


Fill out eight pages document

Name, address, education, drugs, symptoms, basics

She read a list of words and asked you if the word was on the list

Example:. "violin, cabinet, onion"


Long list

Then she told you to recite them back


Then connect the dots . Like children puzzle


Then she asked questions

"Why should you not leave young children home alone?"

"Why should you wash hands before eating?"



Then a printed list of questions. True or false.

For example "I am willing to starve myself to be thinner than I am now"




She told me that I was "bright", "smart" and "motivated"


Like she was going to tell someone they are dim , stupid, lazy


Not even three hours in the same room as me and she said she could diagnose the entire DSM


f**k the system



She said that intellectually challenged children get sent to special education and can't be mainstreamed no matter how much energy they waste


That's just her opinion

No empirical analysis

s**t


She didn't measure IQ



It was an anticlimax


Just sitting around talking


She asked what country I was born in





Unity and diversity


You just know they don't know many Asians if they ask you that


Racism




Then they act like they are doing you a favor by asking



Three weeks until she scores it

But it's multiple choice so whatever




s**t I should have been a clinical psychologist



in counseling there is no such thing as a mistake . It's called a miscommunication

OK. The amazing event has occurred. I have a deep pit in my stomach but I have to focus on the incredible blessings and there are many. She is safe, happy, graduated high school, is in college to be a nurse. She has a spiritual home in her church. She has friends. She has a gathered family and feels secure in that family. Everything else is my problem to keep silent about with her, to let her blossom in her own way. She is so beautiful and my heart is glad.

Sounds really lovely

Thanks.

A little stressed as trying to fill out forms.

I'm fed up with reaching standstill after standstill after standstill. If I keep hearing nothing back from this program (which seems very likely at this point), I'm going to find an apartment I can afford on SSI and get registered for the local disability transportation service and have a go at it on my own, because that seems to be the only way I'll actually make any sort of progress, is to just dive into the deep end. I'm not going to move any farther from my parents than I have to (the apartments really close to us are really expensive, no way I'll be able to afford any of them unless I get a decent-paying job), so I'll still be able to use them as a crutch. I can cook for myself (just don't have the motivation to do much beyond the basics, but it'll get me by), I do my own laundry, I have basic cleaning skills, I'll probably be able to just call the landlord about any repairs beyond changing a lightbulb or maybe unclogging a toilet and can call my dad for assistance with anything else that I don't know how to do, I know how to budget (just need help with estimating the cost of things) and will stick to it to the penny... I think if I can get a good daily routine set and stick to it, I might be able to do it. Then when I've had a chance to settle in and when I feel like I might be ready for it, I can also see about getting a job coach so I can actually have a job I can support myself on. My mom is having significant surgery in early December and we're going to Chicago (where most of my relatives live) for New Year's, so I won't be looking at moving out until sometime next year, but I think after that I'm going to make this my primary focus. Here's hoping I won't have to come running back to my parents with my tail between my legs.

Sounds excellent DandD

Would I make an acceptable husband?

^^^why not?