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I was trying to explain my difficulties at work but my mom constantly shuts me down, and when the topic comes to how i think my brain works different than everyone else.. She just can't deal with it.

I think she has an innate hate and disgust for disabled people. I never wanted to believe it but it is true. I don't know how to feel about situation. I already knew love is not unconditional, it just makes me hate the world a little more.

Anxiety

Saw a video on Facebook of two people who got shot in my local area. The woman, who I learned has passed had her face down and how she had her hair resembled my ex. Turns out it wasn't her but I still had a panic attack and cried my eyes out. Why the hell would someone film that.

A driver had the nerve to scream "b***h!" While I was a pedestrian (not completely certain it was aimed at me, but I was the only pedestrian visible

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Head cashier Stephanie had the nerve to give me a walkie talkie and then call me on it 30 seconds later. When I came, the customers told me that they "got it"

Bart train cancelled. Waited 40 instead of 10 minutes for the train. Still got to work on time, but barely enough time to defecate. Substantial defecation, but felt incomplete

Some idiot had the nerve to tell me to watch his merchandise, while I was waiting for the bus

Unintentionally took lunch at the wrong time

Woke up to an OMG-jump-the-hell-out-of-bed case of leg cramps for the first time in years.

Horrifying! It happens to me every now and then. I try to be careful to position my legs and feet in a "safe angle" when I stretch, but when I'm half awake, there's nothing I can do. Cramps often happen when I lack sleep.

I have had those before. So painful. I haven't had one in a while though.

Stress and gender dysphoria are triggering me to want to heavily restrict my food intake.

Feeling hobbled from very sore muscles

Busy stores

Anxiety

So I get my schedule and great I have less hours this week which is for me currently a positive thing at about 18 hours but then I look at how its lined up. They jammed all of those hours into 4 days with different shift times on each. What. The. F. They do this to me all the time, it's the worst feeling when you need a break for at least a day from work but you need to marathon 4 days in possibly the worst environment for someone with ASD. I feel like I'm on crazy pills by the end of the last 4 day marathon shift. In fact if I have more coffee during my later one's even if I'm a bit tired it really mentally backfires on me.

In other news my old anklet went on me and I had to get another, well apparently I must have had just the right magical size because 10 inches was too long and a solid 9 inch was too tight. Now I need to waste more money buying extenders, waiting for those to come in and seeing they do the trick. Of course just trying to work with tiny clasps alone almost gives me a meltdown. finally I called the place down town where I usually get it repaired to see if they could do extensions there and they are on vacation of course. Why.

Yesterday in the house without running climate control machinery, it was t-shirt, shorts, and bare feet, temperature, just shy of 80F, 26C.

Today in the house without running climate control machinery, inside the house is sweats/fleece temperature and socks are a necessity.

Anxiety

My mom made a call earlier today, but got put on hold for about 20 minutes.

She expected someone to take her call immediately & went on a rant after hanging up.

I was making my bed when I accidentally stepped on and broke some wooden doll furniture that I hand-painted.

I might be able to glue it back together.