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"you have a hard time dealing with reality", mister redelings correctly told me.

By definition, disabilities make it harder to deal with reality.

Otherwise they would be called superpowers

If a car runs a red light tomorrow and I get paralyzed, mister redelings could correctly tell me that "you don't do anything all day long except lie in bed". The statement is correct. The implication is wrong.

Feel invisible and ignored

That is much better than San Diego

Body on edge

Nervous breakdown

Anxiety

Accomplished nothing in "life". 36

Skinny smart handsome cisgender neurotypical extrovert white man

Published, friends, family, hobby


Got fired from a lot of jobs

Flunked

Dumped

Evicted

Didn't overcome challenges


Penis kicked me out of the bathroom today


Tomorrow neurotypical evaluation follow up

Nothing to do for the rest of my "life"


Lazy apathetic hateful motivation jaded wounded misfit


s**t all I wanted was love


f**k mister redelings

f**k Rolando Morales penis

continue to relate to the 'implication was wrong' thing the above poster mentioned and the comparison too

wondering what will happen tomorrow with the car.
wondering about how i will meet my sister
wondering about how i will get through weekend since XH is not taking kids and i dont have a car
(if he had a soul he would have taken them on one night as i dont have a car to even visit my siblings an hour away, they NEVER come here, or come and leave in a few hours... i will be alone)

a psychopath would be the least disabled person (unless co-occurring stuff)

an ASD person, because not evil and actually disabled mentally, has no future (except for some)

I don't think it's that deep actually, they probably dont consider the fact that i have pvery few friends and will probably never marry and am very scared of being alone in life so every friend i made is like a miracle.
So being cold or friendly is all the same to them. They don't lose anything. But i lose too much when someone who acts so nice to me suddenly changes. I lose my self confidence and feel guilty because i feel like i did something wrong. Even though i didn't. And i have to put a distance between us even though it hurts me because i can't risk getting hurt again.

I might be mistaken, but antisocial personality disorder (like people labelled as psychopaths and sociopaths have) can be disabling, especially for so called 'psychopaths' who typically lack the emotional regulation that's required both to be manipulative as well as to even function normally within a society. A little bit of crazy might give someone an advantage, but a whole lot of it will always be a source of trouble for the individual.

My home town has a kink for masochism...

They have more pound shops and cash for gold shops and pawn shops and charity shops than real shops.
They keep cutting services.
People keep being made unemployed.
They keep getting sent all the criminals eg the n......s and violent ones.
They keep losing all the good council tourist attractions for the kids.

They clearly love all this.
Why else vote for it?

I'm looking forward to Christmas, should be a fun one this year....

Neuropsychological evaluation follow up. She told me that my score on the memory section was not as high as usual for someone with education. Paranoid she will accuse me of Test of Memory Malingering. especially the "helping professions", mental health professions , keep f*****g me around. Whatever she does, all I know is that, even if what she does is factually inaccurate, I don't have the resources to deal with it.

What the f**k does memory have to do with, working a job? Some jobs involve some memory. For example , poker dealer.

But what job tells you to sit down and memorize random words and repeat them back?

And connect the dots has absolutely nothing to do with anything s**t

She didn't give me a copy and I should have asked. But she might have refused. She looked authentic.

Cynical skeptical wry suspicious

She told me that she doesn't have the authority to decide who gets government benefits.

Just so worried anxious scared

Trembling past couple of days

Worried about $$$

She told me that she was "impressed" I got so many job interviews. Wtf?

Sorry.... !

Whatever happens to those folks you gotta keep an eye on? At some point they might not have anyone, and then they're either dangerous or dead.

You mean people like me?
I know, right. It's why I had kids.
;P

I think my only real options are to do things the very hard and quite possibly dangerous way, or not at all. Hopefully my stubbornness doesn't land me in the hospital again, or worse. But I was really not planning on living with my parents and having life stay pretty much the same for me for the next thirty years - that would be just as dangerous for my mental health.

i wish your pet were still here and hope you are eventually able to focus on good memories about him.

Do Biblical literalists really believe that YHWH literally got his hands dirty when making us because he was incapable of crafting us at the atomic level?

another day, the same trouble,
the one who repaired the car parked it in the mudhole
yeay

dust means matter i think

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God

word; verbe: מילה inflate, pump, puff, exaggerate, bloat, word

------- noun : thing, something, word, speech, word, matter