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Here's a stupid dare in my mind: the next we're having a staff party, I'm gonna outdrink my boss.
And my boss is one huge drinker.

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Neighbours woke me up last night having literally a screaming argument and constantly bashing the wall, like they were breaking something. It lasted for an hour, I thought, "Meh" and went back to sleep, and forgot about it until I saw someone new enter next door.

I've seen her door smashed in before and a smashed TV outside, I wonder what will be smashed next.

Father Jack's words:

“The hardest part about my work is the fact that most people don’t want a real relationship with God. Yeah sure, they’ll pray to a man nailed to a cross, but they’ll ignore the gay kid who gets strung up, or the black man who gets dragged behind a car, or someone’s mother living in a box.”

“Well, religion is politics, David. Jesus was a revolutionary, who threatened those in power, and they had him assassinated. And they’d do the same thing to him today.”


Faith Without Works, S1E7, Six Feet Under

The persistent frustrations involving non restorative sleep and unreliably clogging sinuses almost every damn night.


I want it to end. I just damn it want it to end.
Is it too much to damn ask?! It's just damn sleep and breathing -- I'm not asking for anything grander than that.

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I feel like I'm really weird for not wanting a romantic relationship of any sort. No, not just weird - bizarre, alien even. Plus the fact that no guy who's actually seen me in person has so much as looked at me twice (though apparently I photograph well). It just makes me feel so... other.

you can be thankful that nobody called you (like they did me) "unconventionally attractive" which is code-speak for "homely."

Affection, recognition, belonging
Acceptance , rejection, betrayal
Reconciliation, love, respect
Silver fox
Join a cult, wierd personality
Boy scouts

Military won't take me. Depression, anxiety, autism. And that's just the diagnosed ones thus far. Besides, involuntary reclassification, rape, homophobia, racism, sexism. Uniform code military justice. Stop loss. Disease, bacteria. Article 15. They can send you anywhere in the world. At any time. Useless rules. Hazing. Sleep deprivation. Can't quit without dishonorable discharge. Detail work. Red tape. Getting smoked. Crowded barracks. Identity theft. MRE cause constipation. Not enough bathroom privacy. Having to clean bathrooms.

Uchi deshi, bacteria, physically dangerous, expensive, annoying idiots, pompous instructor, uniform,

Scientology $$$$

Join a cult s**t

Psoas, hip stretch, splits, half pigeon feels good

Scratching ear with bobby pin feels like orgasm

Exhausted all the time

Dry skin

Yeast infection

Dignity, get a job

"Discrimination " versus survival of the fittest

For example, the DMV does not grant license to blind driver's. Vision is an essential job functions, not "discrimination". The blind did not do anything wrong and the punishment was blind. I didn't do anything correctly and the reward 20/20 vision. They just happen to be blind.


Plenty of idiots love to lay it on thick like "I'm sorry you are sick. Hope you get better soon ". Ass holes. Manipulative. Act like they represent the universe s**t


On the other hand if it is survival of the fittest , then you would think that I already dropped dead age 13



Midlife crisis 36 nothing accomplished


Itchy vagina

A need to finish a class assignment.

My new headphones that are coming soon(ordered them). My aunt bought them for me(which I am very grateful for) and I am very hopeful that these will help with the traffic noise since they have digital sound blocking instead of just headphones that just fit tight on your head. I just have a gut feeling that these will work unlike the ear buds and headphones I have been using before!

I wish I can take a late nap & never wake up, life would be better without me.

Same old same old
(undercurrents of negativity/perseveration)
Thoughts of how to get out of it.

Things to get done- obligations like renew health card, passport (update photo too) etc

feel a bit 'triggered' by going briefly on an NT almost entirely female forum,
the way they judge people (not caring the way ASD people do), etc,
but that's okay.
it happens.