Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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I recommend mind because everyone seems to be too caught up with pleasing everyone else. A little variety would be appreciated.

I hope it wasn't critically important. I hope you can retrieve or recover it.

That's good. 60% is definitely more likely to happen than not, so I hope she wins.

Help?

Don't look at me.

...

*walks away to figure it out*

You can DO ET!

I've done so many chores that I've almost made myself sick. I've gathered up all the garbage this morning, went to the store to get some underpants that will be stuffed with fleece, cooked some ground beef and than I've made enough spaghetti to last me the next 6 nights. I'll wash my sheets and my comforter tomorrow, clean the bathroom, sweep and mop tomorrow. I'm going to Stepping Stones to drum with the guys during the first half hour of the jam session on Friday afternoon. I need a few hours away from my chores.

Being alone & feeling lonely

Meh. My mind is just trying to protect my heart from what happened in the past and do what is best for me. But my heart likes pleasing others as well as myself. It's just frustrating because either way it'll suck...I *think* Urgh.....just frustrating.

I don't know what the situation is but I would suggest going with your heart if you think it will be bad either way because you might feel guilty latter if you don't & you might could tell yourself that you did a good dead in the end. Sorry if I'm not helping

I just did! Stupid game has two separate shuttles, and I kept going to the wrong one.

Just beat it, feel better.

my dad decided to give me a "you still dont have a job? you will never get a job. when are you getting married? its not like you're going back to uni..." he was serious and literal and i am intending to go to uni. he's just saying im gonna fail at life.

^then make it a point to prove him wrong.
How much easier it is to be critical than to be correct.
- Benjamin Disraeli

My apartment isn't ready and I don't have keys to the inside doors yet but I'm moving in tomorrow.

Also I have to go without internet for up to 5 days before the phone company comes.

To try to make myself feel better and ease my pre-move jitters I'll post a list of things that are unbearable where I live now that will be better in the new place.

1. Here the heat is unreliable. The pilot light on the furnace goes out every few days and needs to be relit, the furnace leaks gas at times and the smell upsets me a lot, there is only 1 two sided vent in one wall to heat the entire apartment, and the thermostat is controlled by our downstairs neighbors (at the moment no one even lives there to turn it up). In the new place we will control our own heat.

2. Here the landlord installed an outlet in the bathroom. It hums and upsets me very much causing very bad panic attacks. He installed it through the light and once we discovered that turning the light off cuts power to the outlet we shut it off and kept it off. Now we have no light in our bathroom. After dark we use the bathroom with a flashlight. New place has a light and a heater in the bathroom.

3. Here the roof leaks. There I saw signs of a past leak on the porch and a little dampness above the porch ceiling but where I am now the leak is in my bedroom and in the past has been so bad that I had to move out of my room.

4. I'm having issues with the doors and locks in the new place but one problem in my current place is that my backdoor opens onto a porch so it opens directly to the outside and is very drafty. In the new place at least the doors don't open right to the outside but I won't feel safe unless the locks are changed and the back door is replaced. I would like deadbolts too.

5. More outlets. My current place has 8 outlets (two we won't use). My new place has 15 outlets.

6. I live in the back of a house now and the alley that we have to go through to get in and out gets terribly icy in the winter. In the new place we can go out the front door.

7. It is across the street from my mother's job. We don't have a car and she walks to work so that is good.

Last edited by hanyo on 08 Dec 2011, 11:48 am, edited 2 times in total.

Yea...I'm trying to get a job...but then again, I feel bad because I don't have one.

I told my mom it was executive dysfunction...she said is was growing up.

Also...I intend to go back to uni....but I'm trying to figure out how to get my scholarship back because they told me all I had to do was write a letter and explain why I was kicked out (*cough* *cough* I mean medical deferment) I wrote it (with aspie-bluntforce) and now my scholarship is on a thread because I said the wrong thing. Now I have to write an email to a counselor that approved that deferment to say that I have anxiety, stress, and insomnia from my autism. OH JOY. But that's my last chance there....or else I'm waiting another 5 months to go back. Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

I'm sure they will want me to get married one day....and it will happen...I just need to stop dating people outside of the church Makes life 10X more complicated. Plus, I wanna get married in the temple someday and apparently you marry the type of people you date.

Oh, and I feel sick right now.

Last edited by chrissyrun on 08 Dec 2011, 11:37 am, edited 1 time in total.

People. I can't really understand my coworkers. I don't know why their mood changes so drastically. First they're nice, and talk to me normally, even smile. Then, later, they speak hashly to me, as if I had done something to them, but actually I haven't said or done anything. It's definitely too tough to deal with people.