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Tornado warnings are super scary for me. We were under one this evening where I live.

I guess there’s so much stigma about calling someone “it” that I probably will have to forget about that idea, even if that’s really what I’d prefer. Goodness knows I have enough things with stigma, I don’t need to add another of my own choosing I’ll have to either go with “they/them,” or if I decide this is the case, just let people call me whatever they want, since gender matters so little to me.

I guess to me, “it” emphasizes that I am not a mix of male and female, I actually have no gender. And I really don’t get what the big issue is with calling someone “it.” If given my preferences, I’d call a baby I didn’t know the sex of “it” and not think twice about it (but I don’t because I know people will be offended if I do). Where’s the difference between calling my poodle, who is pretty much like a human toddler except for physical appearance, “it” if you don’t realize he’s a boy and calling a young human child “it” if you don’t know if they’re a boy or a girl (besides just “well, your poodle is a dog.”) I understand that it’s not socially acceptable, I just don’t understand why. I guess I’m so used to always being “other” no matter what group I’m attempted to be put into that I’ve just lost the feeling for it by now.

So really, the decision I now have to make is, just how far/obviously do I (or don’t I) want to separate myself from the idea of “female”?

Sorry, will stop hogging the thread now

Things that just.. Hurt my head. Like, where does this -- this blackened flame of malice inside me actually came from??



Also.. I'm either not in the mood, not having enough appetite or just suddenly lost my taste for chocolate.
It wasn't this bad and sudden when I gradually lose my craving and taste on oilier foods -- no diet involved, it just... Pass for no reason.
Is this semipermanent due to time/age or something that would pass?

I'm turning 25 in less than a week now. I wouldn't exactly mind.

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j'ai travaillé comme lave-vaisselle au traiteur de l'épicerie et notre machine était en panne

,,,,,pour faire court c'était une très terrible journée

il y avait des signes sur comment laver les vaisselles à main dans les deux lavabos. le sol était tellement mouillé car l'endroit n'a pas été conçue pour cela....aujourd'hui j'ai enlevé tous les signes. je n'avais pas envie de me souvenir de cette terrible journeé

this hellworld is increasingly a dystopian place.

thanks, mom and dad.

What to eat for dinner.

THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING GOOD ABOUT THIS STUPID UGLY FUCCKING WORLD AHHHH BURN IT DOWN BURN IT DOWN BURN IT TO THE GROUND

flowers are nice

Legal malpractice (my old lawyer)
Medical malpractice.

And people treat these people well or even lionize them, giving them hero status.

Additionally these types 'come out on top' in this world because they made a ton of $$ from intentionally exacerbating their client's/patient's situations instead of doing the right thing.
They dress well, have everything available to give their family the best lives, everything goes their way while they continue to intentionally harm and betray those who trust them.


Similar to those who hijack religion, bully the vulnerable, deter peace-making, intentionally cause and fan the flames of conflicts, sell arms, prevent justice and peace intentionally.

The world is a funhouse of illusions, often not so fun.

Okay, plans (mostly to help me remember, and if I say I’m going to do something, I’m much more likely to actually do it).

Today - D&D, and I have to decide on the stuff for leveling up by 5PM today since we leveled up at the end of the last session.

Tomorrow - iron infusions, and if I haven’t done it today, I need to get myself clean and wash my hair.

Thursday - I start watching for delivery of the game I ordered.

Friday - therapy appointment, need to confirm the time (it’s been getting moved around a lot recently - understandably, with all the quarantine/COVID-19 stuff going on).

Next Tuesday - another iron infusion, and we need to set up a time with my doctor to get my iron level checked again to see if it helped any more this time (probably in approximately two weeks, since that was the timeframe the last time - though I actually got an earlier appointment because it had become clear by then that most of the benefit from the infusions had worn off).

Every day - try to brush and floss my teeth and wash my face at least once, though twice is even better. Remember that I only need to stand to wet and rinse the toothbrush and washcloth, I can sit while I do the rest if I need to (low energy / weak legs from the anemia (that is the reason I’m getting iron infusions). Also try to edge closer toward a more reasonable bedtime - no more staying up until three in the morning playing Animal Crossing or anything.

Kind of a busy schedule for still having most of the quarantine stuff in effect.

Trying to allow myself my happiness without getting mad at NTs or assuming they're moaning for the sake of moaning.

Did he say that he was going to live in Sweden and leave the UK? Something isn't right with him, not like him to be like this? I'm hoping I'm not the reason why?

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Either my cousin is aspie (I highly doubt it) or NTs are a lot more 'subtle' with facial expression etc than I thought they were.

She basically deadpan said lets do bingo at my party.

Turns out there's no bingo.

What?

I'm glad cos I can't afford to throw £5 away on a game of chance. If she'd said £1 or something I'd be into it.

Wasted money on the expensive version of a product that is available at a cheaper price by a better branf but not in stock