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*****sorry***sorry***sorry***
now i've forgotten the excuse already,
the slow typing thing

after two months of being dismissed
how come im about the only one to work
(in the tiny village) but no pay
oh i hate the *new rules* in accounting
it must be the new word order

yes your taste is immaculate, yourhighness
let me kiss your ass and then you can kick me around some more

a bald policeman with sunglasses?, where does he go?? oh ok it passes, and comes back, i see its the telephone repair person, ah more trucks with that
who's masked? ah come masked to pee in the bushes


ah i see another plan and
mice and man thing
now my car is blocked
o*m*****g
if it ain't nature it is men and if it's not (hu)men its nature

A new phone.
A whole setup to get used to.

How much my hand is too used to the physically wide setting.
Backspace in particular is in a different place.
The screen and everything.

Had attempted to sync the files -- with the unreliable net with an unreliable self, I lost all my bookmarks now. And the rest of my browsing history. Sigh...

Oh well. Lesson learned. And I choose this change to not regret the whole thing.

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Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

A lot of my current time is being taken up with the Cummings news-story..

As usual I’m in the minority in the other forums for thinking that Dominic Cummings is simply the victim of a media driven witch-hunt..

Tired (didn’t get to sleep until some time after the sun rose), depressed, and getting absolutely nowhere in any regard. These iron infusions really don’t seem to be doing me any good at all, not any closer to answers there, and all the anemia stuff is putting everything else on hold. Plus quarantine and the effects thereof mean I can’t even think about possibly trying to get a job until it’s all over, and probably very, very well afterward, because there will be a large influx of people who lost their jobs because of it and will be looking for new jobs, and most, if not all, of them would be more appealing candidates than me, so I shouldn’t bother even considering it as a possibility until well after all the hubbub’s died down. Don’t know if I’ll ever even be in a position where I can consider it anyway. I suspect the rest of my life will be about the same as my life has been since college - just being a lazy layabout still living with and almost completely dependent on my parents and not actually doing much besides existing.

Part of the thrill and allure of river running is going into the unknown. Unfortunately, in this world, it is all known. You can buy books, maps, watch You Tube videos of the river. It boggles my mind and doesn't anyone want to not know anymore?

You should travel the Congo River. Still lots of “unknowns”!

I just learned that someone unsavoury from my past has died.

I don't know when, but it was in the last two years. I noticed a memorial online.

I would like to say Tumble in Hell, but that's probably not polite.

I'll say it anyway.

Every form of routine that I once had has passed away. Exercise, working, energy, etc.

Being stuck at home is driving me insane, little to none social contact, and constantly with the same people who I like and appreciate but it's driving me insane that I have spent the last few months just talking to them and only spoken to other people through my laptop screen. I sometimes am not in the mood to talk to them and even try to be honest about that but I always feel bad because it feels so rude to tell someone you currently don't want to talk to them.

I'm also easily exhausted, go to bed pretty late (it's 4 am and I'm still awake) yet sleep for a pretty long time and still feel tired throughout most of the day as I keep finding myself just randomly walk to my bed, lie down and just dissociate from the world for a short period of time. (Most likely not the psychological type of what the official dissociation would be, but just staring in front of me without actually looking) I find myself just doing that multiple times a day and also at night in bed before sleeping.

Two weeks ago I cycled for the first time since March and it took me twice as long to cycle this route that would normally take me twenty minutes. At first, I thought it was because of the wind and the heavy bags that I was carrying but on the way back I had neither yet I did not have the energy to drive properly. I really got out of shape.

Completely lost track of time and my assignments, constantly find people messaging me how it's going with the project I would be working on for them completely realising I forgot about it. I feel bad for them having to wait for me.

As much as I enjoy having this extra free time while trying to maintain at least one productive task every day it also just starts to affect me negatively and I'm constantly praying that they'll find a cure soon

But hey, 400 posts :U

Everybody is either a freaking philosopher with an answer for everything, or obsessed with asking "why?"

I was reminded yet again how horrible humans are, and in spite of the efforts of the few "good" humans, they still continue to be horrible, which makes them horrible as well.

There are many “good humans.”

Lockdown is showing that it's mentally healthier to be high functioning autistic than to be allistic. Rely on yourself and have a few hobbies/interests. Don't constantly seek out others to be your amusement or rot your brain with alcohol.