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16 Oct 2020, 10:59 am

Nostalgia is such an intense feeling!! I've been aware of this for some time but I just pulled up a video with Pokemon video game songs that claimed it would be 'too nostalgic' and they were right! The emotion that derives from nostalgic encounters (encounters with media, mostly) is such an intense one and makes me...equally sad and wistful? Like I'm happy to be reliving, even partially, that old moment of happiness, but on the other hand I become almost desperate to recapture it.

Quite a few years ago I went through this recapturing phase really intensely, where I was desperate to find this old Beatrix Potter video I remember from my very early childhood. Once I found it, I was really happy but got put off by myself for being so adamant to return to a point in time where I couldn't have been but 3-5 years old (at most). This was before I was diagnosed, of course, and one thing my diagnosis (of ASD) has done for me is allow me to recontextualize certain behaviors that I thought were 'cringey' or 'age-inappropriate', but I still grapple with whether it's healthy or not to try to relive these moments.

I miss the innocence of being young. Even though my anxiety was already fairly debilitating at a young age, there was a lack of concern I had back then. For example, I'm not good at decision making, and at 24 years old, I'm dealing very heavily with how responsible I am for making my own decisions. But sometimes I wish I was just a child again.



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16 Oct 2020, 3:20 pm

Something bad may have just happened to my work laptop... :silent: :scratch:

I was printing a Word doc to PDF (a task I do 10 times a day) and I looked away for a few minutes (okay I was browsing the internet :P ) and when I looked back at the screen a notepad file with a similar title was opened and looked very odd. It seemed to contain command codes.... Might have been executing a program? Various buttons and task bars where flicking like some major processing was taking place. It wouldn't let me close out or end the task, so did a hard restart.

Now it says it's updating.... taking an awful long time....

Meanwhile that new laptop (which is teeny tiny and I don't want it) they got me is just sitting nearby...I can feel it's proverbial eyes gleefully looking at me in anticipation :cyclopsani:
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16 Oct 2020, 4:10 pm

Either this 'two types of people' paradiddle I have going which I've had for years.

And nobody will hear me out about it on twitter cos they're probably all drunk right now...

And my dad has such limited vocabulary that he just says 'they're stupid' like that's an end to it.

I analysed it in depth... too much for some people, hyper analytical...*

OR

The fact that this book Real Life is really dull.

It's like they all have the most stereotypical aspie job in the world. STEM type PHD job. Which I find dull.

And yet they're utterly NT in conversation and every single conversation is small talk.

And nothing else happens...

I really hope they don't give this book the prize. I really want Shuggie Bain to win.

* All I will say is I am finally in a city which lives up to the values I have and I love it. And my neighbour comes from a city with similar values and it's really nice living near someone like him.


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16 Oct 2020, 6:16 pm

If there's a roulette in my head, then I ran out of luck at some point.


Favor went from 82 to 84 for some reason...
I don't beg for said favors. In fact unwarranted begging will backfire.
Or even just thinking about favors themselves won't do anyone favor. Pun not intended.

Sometimes I wonder... If I'm sharing a 'celestial account', with who and how many. But that's not unusual, because it is meant to be tended collectively. :lol:
What's unusual if I'm also sharing a 'natural account' when it is meant to be tended individually by choice.


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16 Oct 2020, 8:55 pm

I went to play my girlfriend's xBox 360 & the CD drive seems to be f#cked. I go through phases where I play it a lot & then don't play it for a long time. I haven''t played it in a while & when I went to today the drive kept spitting the game out instead of reading it. I took the disk out & unplugged the system & dusted it cuz things were dusty. The CD drive did not want to open after I plugged it back in. After I finally got it open I put a game in & the CD drive started spitting it out again. We have disks for practially all the games & not many of them were installed in order to save hardrive space. Cass has the One that she plays a lot but it only plays certain 360 games & it is hooked to a different TV. We are not sure how to procede now. We could try seeing if we could fix the drive somehow. Or we could try getting a replacement CD drive. Or we could look into getting a used or possibly referbished 360 that is the latest model, I don't think the 360 model we currently have is the latest one but I'll check to be sure. Things to think about. In the meantime I could play my Nintendo 64, my Super Nintendo, my Sega Genesis, my NES, or our PS2


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17 Oct 2020, 1:19 pm

Wonder how long I should take off twitter til everyone stops being angry...

(and yes I realise that posting this so generically to this site will generate answers like 'never go back' lol. I mean specifically angry over the game)


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18 Oct 2020, 8:26 am

There's compensating in order to adapt.
And there's compensating in order to cope.

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18 Oct 2020, 9:33 am

Twitter is full of people analysing yesterday like they're football geniuses.

And idiot stupid Martin Reilly picking fights with fans.

Everyone should know their position.

Fans. Moan about the game and your emotions after it.

Agent. Don't get into petty squabbles with fans.

I can't handle this weird blurring of roles.

Not even getting started with that weirdo trying hippy peace crap.


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18 Oct 2020, 9:03 pm

So, I have to go back to work tomorrow and have been thinking about how a really, really don't want to go back to work. Then, I found out that not only do I have to go back to work, but I am scheduled for a hearing tomorrow morning at 9 am that I am not ready for. Yikes!! ! And then, our dog died. :cry: I wanted really badly to give up, but I knew I couldn't because others need me, so I pulled it together and prepared for the hearing, helped bury the dog amid tears and memories, and I will be okay.


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18 Oct 2020, 9:12 pm

^ :( Poor doggy. I'm very very sorry Blazingstar!



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18 Oct 2020, 11:56 pm

Oh. I think my friend and I are on the verge of dating. Still talking about it... My head is spinning.


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18 Oct 2020, 11:57 pm

blazingstar wrote:
So, I have to go back to work tomorrow and have been thinking about how a really, really don't want to go back to work. Then, I found out that not only do I have to go back to work, but I am scheduled for a hearing tomorrow morning at 9 am that I am not ready for. Yikes!! ! And then, our dog died. :cry: I wanted really badly to give up, but I knew I couldn't because others need me, so I pulled it together and prepared for the hearing, helped bury the dog amid tears and memories, and I will be okay.


I'm so sorry. :(


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19 Oct 2020, 12:27 am

martianprincess wrote:
Oh. I think my friend and I are on the verge of dating. Still talking about it... My head is spinning.


Make sure you keep "an eye" on him. :mrgreen:



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19 Oct 2020, 11:38 am

Its snowing outside. In October.



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19 Oct 2020, 2:02 pm

I might make some apple muffins....

I baked apple slices yesterday. My doctor suggested cooking the offending items could prevent oral allergic reactions. Sadly, this did not work for apples. But since I was able to tolerate banana bread, I may be able to salvage the baked apples by using them for muffins :chin: .



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19 Oct 2020, 4:59 pm

Thank you Aurora and Martian Princess. We buried him with his favorite toy, a worn out jolly ball that he liked better after my husband ran over it with the lawn mower. Go figure. Our other dog keeps looking for his friend and doesn’t understand.

Work was long and grueling today.


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