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How do I put a photo here. I want to put a photo here.

^ That's some scary meat

... 'it' still doesn't stop.

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I wish there was a way to hide specific threads on this site (so I wouldn’t have to keep seeing them in the list), but if there is, I’m unaware of it. Some threads I know it’s best for me to avoid just by the title.

I hate that I’m gaining so much weight. I know it’s probably because of the chemo/steroids I’m getting, and when I mention it to my doctors, they all say that I’ll probably lose it again once I’m done with chemo, but in the meantime, I just can’t stop thinking about how fat I am (even though I’m not really, I’m just used to being skinny and am not anymore) and perseverating on trying to lose weight, or at least keep from gaining more.

Last night our game cameras caught a panther walking down our drive, maybe 200 yards from the house. Now pondering our place in the food chain.

just today, noticed front yard garden hose gone missing.

lately, someone has been putting trash in my garbage can.

really do not wanna interact with precious lil "people".

there is only one of me.

install hidden camera. forensic scientist, please dust for fingerprints.

booby trap, like "home alone" movie

it's like i have to bolt down everything above salvage value to the ground.

that's totally ghetto. suspect the squatters next door. they just moved in a month ago. everyone else appears to been here for much longer. garden hose only about 30 f*****g bucks s**t. if they were to have asked, i would've been happy to let them borrow it.

grand theft garden hose


don't wanna accuse them. in sixth grade i accused someone of stealing something and i was wrong. an entire stampede of their lil cronies physically assaulted me at bus stop. 37, thought about it every day.

s**t i don't know if he has a gun, felony conviction, gang, mental illness. the worst case scenario is subject to imagination

the best thing that could happen is nothing bad happens

gambling



"life" is a f*****g farce, s**t.

"sideways stories from wayside school"

"cloudy with a chance of meatballs"

"where the wild things are"

"choose your own adventure"

dead end "life"

dead end job

all is not lost

it is not the end of the world

y2k wasn't the end of the world either.

what jobs don't require dressing up?

plumber, stripper

considering looking for a job

my current job hired me for Freight. involuntarily reclassified to Lot Attendant. constantly outside. rain forecasted starting this week.

rain, frozen banana, chocolate, wheat bread, emotional, jeans, polyester, trigger eczema flare ups

itching intensely

coronovirus is survival of the fittest time

graceful degradation, not progressive enhancement, is the best i can attempt for

many times, i attempt something and then fail.

for example, i tried to continue living. and it didn't work.

"life" skills

don't know how to fix: phone, printer, washer, dryer, garbage disposal, blinds.

"life" gone sideways.

can't gain traction

going nowhere in "life"

hopeless

unemployable

"one bright day in the middle of the night, two dead men got up to fight"

everything i try to do is like "you can't make a silk purse out of a sows ear"

competing nature versus nurture

exhausted all the options a longfuck time ago

cotillion

finishing school

I've just discovered for the first time the avatar gallery. My entire perception has been changed. I don't know what to do with this information

It’s really weird when I see definitions/descriptions of verbal abuse and realize that what my dad sometimes did to me as a teen probably counts. I really don’t think of myself as having been abused, but then again, it is clearly the primary reason for my self-esteem issues, extreme aversion to conflict, sensitivity to criticism, and I absolutely am still afraid to give him news he isn’t going to like for fear that he’ll completely blow up at me about it.

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Ahhh your face! Has changed!

Who is this person? Why is his skin so felt-y....

Weirder nights.
And even weirder heads.

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I really need to start reminding my therapist that our sessions are supposed to be therapy sessions, not just chats. He seems to forget that and usually spend most of the time trying to talk about other things (this time politics, when I’m not investing myself in anything until it actually happens, which is not yet - and I told him that, and he just kept talking about it. Sometimes it’s our dogs, sometimes it’s trying to prize biology-related information from me, or information about my prior treatments for other clients, sometimes it’s iPad games I have no interest in and have told him I don’t play...), so I feel that a lot of our sessions are pretty pointless.

Just the usual GAS.

First it was chocolate. And then there's tea.

What's next, lunacy? I meant different lunacy.
Because there was a blue moon in Halloween.

Too bad I missed seeing it.
It was a very cloudy yet a very windy night.

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