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I'm going to be playing German Christmas music on YouTube through the month of January. If Barb asks me what I'm listening to, I'll tell her that it's international music.

Another willful dive to the unpleasantry.
Cause I'm bored.

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There are remarks that I would've disagreed strongly.
There are scenarios that do not fit with my own versions of how it goes.

I observed and see; various excuses. Various rebuttals. 'Did I did that?'

Various words and ideas contrary to the remarks, enriched with the unpleasantness. 'I wanna be heard', 'I wanna give them a piece of my mind'. Validate this idea, that thought, etc.

These thoughts had to be translated to words.

Whatever I may or may not post may take few minutes or several hours. Just for that simple and short remark.
And then there's a headache, in which caused by overflowing thoughts and ideas.
Or maybe overwhelming quantity and the reflex to translate whatever.

In turn this headaches -- in my case, it's usually behind and above my left ear -- caused by unbridled flows of thoughts and emotions, turn into stress and this heaviness one cannot simply shake.
Repeat it enough and not let it go, it'll turn into some form of anxiety.

And this form of anxiety, could produce this stress avoidant behaviors associated with that remark, and where that remarks originated.

Then people complained that ignoring it doesn't work. The truth is that, one does not know how to let it go.


'Why' is this? Well, there are already speculations that's how humans are.
I'd say more like that's how humans brains and therefore minds are conditioned to be.
Some brains and therefore minds are just very prone to it -- like autism.


How do an autistic let it go?
It's already tricky as to how a human in general could've let it go.

Would it be easier or harder for an autistic to do it?
Depends. As do per individual along with their sentiments; what they know and believe.
Go further in this area, I'd be entering a different territory.


So...
Others may suggest distractions. Others may suggest to meditate in it. Others may suggest to take meds, or keep it in or let it out.

How about me?
I don't know. Mine just passes for most part.

What I don't like are these headaches.
As if my head sprinted and it's still sprinting despite it's sore and aching and should stop before it injures itself by overworking.

How does one reason with the brain?
How does one reason with the mind?
How does one reason with the beliefs that is thought with it?
How does one reason itself outside of itself alone?
How does one reason with emotions -- this is an old issue for many.

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A new alternative Christmas Carol.

Scrooge is a butcher. He dismisses some Green Peace pamphleteers. He eats every bit of meat in sight & lives in a house of leather furniture.

He is woken by three ghosts. One takes him back to a time of cannibals, one takes him out to the slaughter house & one takes him forward into a future run by aliens in which humans are harvested for their flesh.

When he wakes in the morning, he goes out and buys the biggest nut roast he can find From that day on, he never kills another turkey, goose or even chicken He opens a green grocer.

... My mom thought I was bragging just because I like the taste of tequila and lambanog better than white wine.


People yet to figure; I could barely tolerate grape juice -- just like most fruits and beverages out there. Let alone fermented and alcoholic versions of it's fruit and flavor.
But it's no mystery I like pure coconut juice -- why not it's fermented and alcoholic versions of it?

And do not see the connection of that apparently the point isn't the alcohol itself, but simply the base and it's flavor...


Maybe she'd guess it right next time to get an alcohol with base flavors I may actually favor...

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Using The Kinks as an avatar today but with a German heart and celebrating Pete Quaife's birthday. I can always switch back to German Santa tomorrow. The screenshot function on my Chromebook and ipiccy are godsends. I thought I'd think about someone other than myself. That person is the original Kinks base player. It's party time! A party without all that London/England talk.

It's funny how Mick Avory always seemed to be standing a little farther away from the rest of The Kinks. I think there's a big possibility that he could be one of us.

I'm Hhhhhiiiiiiiiiggggggghhhhhh!

kill 2020

I have just been listening to this - and right after, I saw a firework, that made med feel that I was moving through a meteor storm.
The purity of both was overwhelming.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IbOGS3GfaVw

The only things that I ate today was a small scone and a big bowl of popcorn. Perhaps I can invent poppeas in the new year.

I couldn't sleep. But then it was 2 spoonfuls of worth of coffee was in my cup...


On a whim, I tried to learn actual portrait drawing. I suck at it because I suck at proportions.

Starting this tutorial...?

And, well.. I tried to fill the rest myself.
Now I'm just drawing from random portraits.

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I took a screenshot of today's google doodle. I might want the cuckoo clock for a later date.

More heads faces.


AND IT'S 5AM!! !
Am too hungry and may not be too sleepy.

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