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Still feeling ill.

OH dear don't remind me I'm about to get off the DSP and I have to deal with that

Boffheadlink ain't so bad it's those private "providers" that are the real @ yeah what next lets privatise public schools....

When I see that Serena Russo women (sp) on tv (she's one of those "providers") I want to punch her in the face they treated My Mom like $%T even though she was getting something like $20 a week from the dole (working poor) so she said fine cut me off

No new messages....oh well...not everyone spends their life online.

LOL


Today in my life: the innebriation wore off

Suddenly, I come to realize something; An incident has occurred that I am not sure on the details of. This incident then lead to me being avoided. I don't know why, and I'm slowly, oh so slowly, feeling... odd. Unstable? No, not quite. It's like if you loosen the nails in a house. It starts creaking and falling apart, but sometimes it takes a while to do so, and sometimes it never fully falls apart. In any case, I'm not worried or disappointed or longing anymore. I'm not angry or happy or raging, either. Not sad, not depressed, and certainly not peaceful or content. Maybe I'm fed up, which I think is different from angry/raging. Part of me's in denial, I think, and I'm confused.

No longer am I content with life at the moment. 'Why?' is what I ask. Fine. Time to go do other things, then. Maybe I can find out why.

I was publicly humiliated:

sydney but its fine. ill just not leave the house for a while and slip into old hermit habits. thanks for the thought though.

Cat dumped half a tub of coffee over the floor

SERIOUSLY....this school is stringing me along!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

I do NOT want to be a year older than everyone when I go to college as a freshman! I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't!

I mean, I want a social life and all that whatnot when I go there, I want to have fun, I don't like being older, it makes me feel weird....ESPECIALLY if I know some of the younger ones.

I feel like giving up right now...but I won't...but it's unrealistic.

Get your scholarship back = write a letter + call counselor I talked to once to write one
Screw up the letter = call same counselor and verify that I have autism
Wait patiently and nervously for many weeks = get scholarship back
Try to sign up for classes = call a million departments
Call the right one finally = I'm waiting to be readmitted
Waiting to be readmitted = Oh really? I was supposed to send in my transcripts in, thanks for telling me a month before the start of school
Send in transcripts = oh, it takes 2-3 weeks to process from a supposedly good and reputable site
Waiting for them to process = You can call back on Jan 9 and see if your transcripts are in

MEANWHILE

orientation starts on the 13th
classes are on the 17th

and I am supposed to find housing WITH my own bedroom and sign up for the right classes (so I don't die of bad scheduling)

Is it even possible...I feel like hurting something right now...each step I take feels like one step backwards
This is supposed to be the happiest time of the year yet I feel like crying, I feel like dying
I cannot take staying at home anymore, I cannot take not knowing if I have a future or if I'm gonna end up living at home until I'm 40 years old....I am sorry for being lazy, and not knowing all that stuff, but I've already lost one opportunity at college...I don't want to miss it again
It's my last chance, my last hope...I can't let this go

^relaxxx. write out a schedule of all the things that you personally have to do- what date they have to be done by and how long they will take to do to make sure you have time. You're doing good and i'm sure it will all get sorted out(:

That's the thing...I never know precisely what exactly I am to do aside from the classes and housing thing...and every time I try to accomplish something in those departments, it turns put to stab me in the back. Plus, there doesn't seem to be enough time, there's no way I'm gonna be able to find housing that I need. I'm trying, but I feel helpless in all of this.

ask someone what things you need to do- your parents/the college/another student....

&stay calm, you have a good few weeks- enough time to find something. or maybe you could stay somewhere temporary until something comes up?



I'm bored and confused and stressed

I am, but they don't make it clear....I called where I was supposed to, but since my parents weren't home to tell me what to say, I left a rambly long message about housing and yea...

I have talked to one or two other students, they have my number "if anything comes up"

The college, ha...all they have are dorms. I NEED to be able to cook my own food so that option is severely limited

Meh, not really, everyone is on vacation now. I hate my timing.

Thing is, contracts are by the semester. Plus I don't like have family up there. Oh, I could camp out in the woods or something, that would work.

Well....go rollerskate, bike, take a walk, read a book, or makes something to eat...any of those ideas sound appealing?

hmm

i meant like a cheap hotel or summin if worse comes to worst, it'd be easier to find somewhere once you're there rather than from a distance anyway

it's 11pm here and i've already eaten too much today
heyho

Cheap hotels don't have stoves...plus my parents are really big on keeping me safe

Book?

I've been feeling kind of depressed lately. I don't know what's causing it.