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F/friend
Who passed away
And the wisdom he passed on
To me and so many.

Doctors not practicing medicine very well ..........

Well, I guess the situation that led to my hospitalization last week guarantees that I’ll never get to live on my own. Why? Because I’m very good at carrying on as usual even as I’m surreptitiously glancing around trying to find something sharp enough that it would do significant damage (to myself). And at my worst, I don’t tell anyone because I don’t want to be stopped, even at my innermost core I have no desire to keep living. I’m asked if I feel safe, but I don’t want to be safe, I want to be done. And now people know this, so odds are I will never be trusted to be alone for too long again.

I agree with that. My girlfriend has a very hard time setting bookbinderies with her family & some members take advantage of her. She was brought up having some extreme religious beliefs pushed on her(from the church more than her family) that people are worthless unless they are always putting others ahead of themselves & that feeling pride is a sin & that thoughts have power. A lot of her family members have their own various mental & physical things they're dealing with & two are very demanding & needy sometimes. They sometimes put a lot of pressure on her to visit & spend time with them when they want or need her. One is actually an Aspie who has always(since he was little) accused family of not loving him as a manipulation tactic to get his way. Nowadays he can not handle being by himself & is taking major advantage of another family member & he uses suicide threats whenever that family member gets upset with him & needs to get away from him for a while. Then that family member gives in & goes back to stay with him because she'd feel horribly guilty if he were to kill himself. He also as a LONG list of rules for whenever somebody stays with him even thou he can not handle being by himself & he'll change those rules when they suit him. He's probably a big part of why Cass can put up with me so easily. I'm much easier to live with & deal with. Another family member of Cass is a guy who's elderly with various mental & physical issues & expects Cass to move in with him & become his caretaker even thou I'm kinda Cass's cuz Cass needs her own. He's burned bridges with most every other family member by performing sh!t-tests & then getting mad at the people for failing them. He hasn't really done that with Cass thou probably cuz he's afraid of losing her & then he'll have no-one close to him. He's also is kinda letting himself waist away & talks about dying a bit. Cass kinda gives in with him cuz she's not sure how much longer he'll be alive. Cass is WAAAAAY more empathic than me cuz I'm too much of an a$$hole sometimes to have the patience to deal with that cr@p. I think the Aspie needs to be committed to a mental facility long-term & the elderly person needs to be in a nursing home. They are not really my family members thou so about all I can realistically do is encourage Cass to try & distance herself some & take time for herself more. I also try to not take too much advantage of Cass which is difficult partly cuz she has a hard time telling me what she wants & does not want sometimes, she probably doesn't really know herself either.

No...I refuse to say....nobody gets to know what is on my mind. I figure that is not a usual response to this so I figured I should throw it in.

Depressed. The cruelty and ignorance of people never ceases to amaze me.

I don't watch the news, don't read newspapers since it triggers intense sadness and hopelessness.

I'm glad you posted this. A few months ago the iCarly star Mirasnda Cosgrove made a comment in a podcast about being on a celeb dating app/site thing. Since then I've been wondering WHY I've been thinking that she should just make a move on any guy she likes. If the guy is straight, single, & knows who she is, I cant imagine why she would be rejected. Hell I woulda married her in a hot second when I was single. Your post gave me some angles to think about Caesar. I'll post a link to the Reddit page I saw the clip on https://www.reddit.com/r/MirandaCosgrov ... a_podcast/

It must be hard to live like that .

Confusion, stress, impatience. Just make a decision, already! I'm scared you're going to muck it up!

You're freaking me out!

Focus focus ....keep thought being more positive .

mass confusion

Taking care of my health .

I wish I never stopped playing guitar.

A memory... Of an old friend. He's one of the first high school friend I had.
He was bullied for his size and his feminine disposition.
I never once judged him -- maybe I'm just too clueless.
Nonetheless we hung out with another mutual friend, likely his neighbor and also fellow classmate.

I just remembered them. Just three of us in our first year. Until we're no longer at the same sections at the next year.



Regardless.
I haven't talk with this particular person for over a decade -- like many others, including the mutual friend.

Hoping for better results with my medical care .

When The Kinks sing about rats, they're singing about people.