matt271 wrote:
my dream is to do nothing. i don't want to work. i don't want to work. and i don't want to work. i don't want to go out and do crap. i don't want to do crap at home. i just don't want to do crap.
so, back to my dream of doing nothing, i want to do nothing.
if only i could do nothing

I hear you. I lived that life for 15 years or so. Still would if I could.
But my dream is to find some area of research that I can love, instead
of another person. Something that I can throw all my effort into, as I used
to for human love. Maybe even something that will love me back. Probably
ain't gonna happen though - but I didn't think the former life was possible either.