I am extremely depressed today... And facing a trial that...

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Going to go mute for a bit.. Going to devote my time and energy to preparing for any options.. Plus, still haven't heard back from the management office..

May be a bit before I update..

Either way, thank you guys for the room to vent and express... It is very appreciated...

Still here and holding on.. We now have a couple groups that will be looking into all of this, and can hopefully help us fix it.. When individuals who know their stuff (or just have good common sense) hear about/see all that's happened, they can't wrap their mind around as to how and why it's gone this way.. I know that I still can't, and am only faced with the reality that sometimes people are just cold of heart, and dishonest.... We've continued saying nothing more to the neighbors or management. Some of the issues still remain, but, there's been a marked change in their behavior overall... I don't think they expected us to be as thorough as we've been in gathering evidence to what's been going on... But the way they treated my family was terribly wrong, and we had to do something... We no longer felt comfortable or secure in our own home, and still don't... My biggest concern is the future of my little girl... She's been showing signs of stress (random breakdowns and things she says), but she still pushes on through the days being an innocent child.. Humbles me. Helps to keep me strong, and holding on to hope... I envy those days of innocence and of little worry.. But, she needs me..us.. So we hold on.
Our holiday season was a complete disaster, but we still had each other.. Our little one starts schooling again in about a week, and am hoping that can help get her back on track. December was very bad for her and us.. Due to the stress of what's been going on, she missed several days of school.. I also teach her at home, but all of that came to a screeching halt this past month.. I just couldn't do it anymore...... Either she was falling apart randomly when the issues began or I would, and I haven't truly recovered since=(..... Sometimes I feel like I have failed her.. I fight hard to not let those kind of thoughts sink in too deep, but it is difficult.
We now await the next steps... I am not sure what those will be, but I hope that my little family can continue on in peace.. We so need it...

Thanks guys for listening....

You have absolutely *not* failed your daughter! You are a kind and devoted father. When the stress is too high, of course that becomes a priority over everything else. Just keep being the loving father you are.

Thank you.. I is nice to feel like I have some back up..
It is 1:14 AM here, and am finding it hard to sleep.... Night time anxiety is really hammering me lately.. So many worries about the future... And such irony, as this time of night finally brings some silence to the noise around me.
I pray that the agencies that have assigned themselves to help us can really come through...

Today was fairly quiet over all.. Only a few instances of something a bit above normal living noise.. Maybe everyone was just gone for most of the day, idk.. I'm also suspecting that they are indeed aware of the report on them by now, but it's a little late to appear that everything's normal with all we've gathered to show otherwise...
Either way, I took the opportunity to pick up teaching the little one again.. Thanks to high speed internet, I am able to tap into some nice HD programs for her to watch online (plus interactive apps/games etc).. Today we learned of volcanoes and lava flows. She really enjoys seeing and learning about these kinds of things, and it gives her a break from the usual stuff... One of my interests is meteorology, and she likes to sit with me while I study weather maps/models. Her favorite thing to look at are hurricanes and tornadoes. I am pleased that her early interests are not of the usual things.. I'm also into photography, and she seems to have a keen interest in that as well.. I bought her a Fujifilm FinePix XP95 upon her request of wanting a camera (She was watching me browse big cameras online when she requested).. She now uses it fairly often to take photos of her toys, things she sees on her educational programs or of us in general. I am hoping that it will flourish for her as it can be therapeutic. When Spring arrives, we'll be able to take little trips out in the warmer weather so she can learn to take photos of flowers and whatever else she wishes.. Anything that's productive, and makes her happy, I'm all for it.

I'm glad things are looking up for you for the moment.

My daughter (almost 7) has that same camera and she loves it!