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I need another haircut already. My hair is going crazy.

On a positive note, no more pink eye.

why oh why can't i for ONCE IN MY LIFE sleep like a normal human being
WHY
it's going to go like this, I know it:
I take a nap now. I wake up at 7, groggy and not wanting to be awake. Then I sleep at 10 or so.. get 5 hours. Be forced to attend a nonsense christmas party to which I'd rather be stabbed. Then when I go to bed at, 7 or 8am, I get woken up by idiots. Then before I know it I sleep nights like a normal person. Oh, then I have to work at 10pm.. til, 8 or 9am all week. Did I mention I'm absolutely screwed? I make my life harder than it really needs to be. Why can't I just have an off and on switch I can flip as I please?

My son crawled into bed with me at about 3:30 am. He has a head cold and kept me up with bubbly breathing.

2 things made me unhappy today. the first one is trivial but i was outraged by it.
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1. i bought some eggs that were supposed to be 70 gram (extra large) eggs, and i boiled 2 of them, and put the first one in my egg cup, and the egg was so small that it sank into the eggcup to the extent that i could not chop it's head off. it was exactly the same size as the eggcup, and the top of the egg was below the rim of the eggcup.

i decided to get the egg out of the eggcup so i could chop it's head off, but it was "suction cupped" into the eggcup, and i could not shake it out of the eggcup.

i shook the eggcup as hard as i could to get the egg out, but the egg was stuck fast in the eggcup.

there was no alternative but to break the top of the egg with my knife by gently stabbing it, but then the shattered shell fragments sank into the yolk, and i tried to fish them out, but i could not get the shell fragments out of the egg, and i became annoyed and i decided that i would have to sacrifice the egg by clawing it out of the eggcup with my spoon.

the egg was destroyed and it was a mixture of shell grit and yolk, but i still could not get the egg out of the eggcup. i had to scrape the whole thing out vigorously with my knife as it seemed to be glued into the cup.

after i threw the wreckage of that egg away, i then stupidly placed the second egg into the egg cup, and the same thing happened.

i was extremely angry about that. i felt ripped off. breakfast was canceled.


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2. i will be spending christmas day on my own because i have no family any more. my father died earlier this year, and he was the only person who wanted me to spend christmas with him.
i always hated christmas day because i saw it as a social chore, and i was always glad when it was over. but now i have no dad anymore, i feel very sad because i am completely alone.

i am adopted, and my sisters all dislike me because they see me as a dud. they all voted to adopt me, and they thought they would get a normal healthy little brother, but i was not mentally healthy and they disowned me from an early age. they dislike me because they see me as an imposter who took the place of the little brother they wanted.

needless to say i did not even get an email saying "merry christmas" from them. i have no friends either so there is no christmas wishes for me.

tammy wanted me to go to her place for christmas, but tammy's brothers and sisters also do not like me, and they vetoed tammy's invitation. they think i am a cold and arrogant person.
i do not know how to act in a way that people like.

they are angry that tammy does not throw me away because they see me as an unloving machine and they say tammy can do so much better than me.

oh well... that is life in the big smoke i guess.

sorry for this pathetic quasi emotional post but i wrote it before i decided i should not post it, and i do not like to waste energy so here it is.

Well, I like you b9, so I'm sending you a cyber Merry Christmas. Perhaps it would be a good day to spend with your animal friends. How are they by the way?
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The egg debacle would have infuriated me too.

i like you too, b9. Merry Christmas.

Admissions.
Revelations.
Self-reflection.

Family.

Almost everything, as usual

It's not snowing.

Ugh...but for reals...my family just came home, so no more skyping with my best friend (unless I want little siblings listening in ) and I got my gift from mother someday you can be a mother too with this....and I feel like absolute crap from that because I decided to eat mexican food, as if my stomach already doesn't have issues with that...and I am just angered at the world right now.

I feel extremely guilty today. I have no clue why.