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What movie to go to a theater to see either tomorrow or Friday.

Discovering that there's a thin layer of protective wrap on the stainless steel tap I got five years ago.

I wondered why it always seemed a little cloudy.

WHOOPS.

But now I have no idea how to get it off?

I would like a anwser asap.

Currently i have a phychichal yearly checkup, and it is scaring me, as a I will be having a male doctor looking at my parts. I need to know if I'm crazy... is having a doctor of opssite sex, and age normal???????????


thanks for reading, I'm hoping I don't have parnioa

^ I assumed it's normal.
That, it is somewhat random. Unless specified or requested.

It is also normal to request otherwise.

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My friend finally managed to get fully microchipped- I mean vaccinated today.

Feeling rather lazy.

I don't understand at the moment.

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Dinner was amazing!

Since I have to get up really early in the morning I'm wondering if I should just stay up.

It's almost noon.

.. I'm several hours past time this body supposed to fall asleep.
And... Uhh... My insides are working harder.

I woke up in the middle of the night because my bladder and stomach just refuses to let me be.

In attempt to relieve stomach issues earlier, I drank warm coffee.
There was nothing else and I don't want to drink plain warm water.

So... Yes. The sheer physiological stress. The subtle strain in my system by every waking second.
I'd be a bit vulnerable for a while or at least prone to "reactions" if I'm not careful.


... I'd rather sleep at early to mid noon.

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moving stress.
feeling like i need to break off a friendship as an old friend of mine and I are "butting heads" constantly.

... Just... 30 hours to go... Maybe, just maybe...


First thing I'd do right after, is go to a grocery store.

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I'm trying to learn to program again. I've been more motivated lately.

Left -- crochet 'project'
Right -- randomness

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I feel legitimately stupid because I can barely do basic math.

Once upon a time I had kept a journal for about 3 years.

Didn't wrote everyday. Only when I felt like it. Usually in special occasions or when the emotions are generally stronger.

And what did I find over the course of 3 years?
The positive and neutral to negative are odds of 1:7. That is not a guess. I counted the whole thing.
Though I forgot how many pages were there. Probably no more than 150 pages.

The complaints were the same. It's always about the same reason. The same thing to blame at. The same kind of frustration.

It always circles in at least 3 specific things.
It was the 3 miserable things in my life that I want gone, yet it refuses to leave me alone.

No real improvement whatsoever in times that preceded that journaling.
The same complaints and frustrations stretched as early as aged 5. The blame shifts and changes, along with the goal posts of how to improve however.

... .... .....

So yeah.
I want out. But didn't know what to do. Didn't know what am I supposed to say. No amount of admittance or acknowledgement did.

Beating myself over it didn't worked. Lashing it over others didn't worked.

... Or perhaps... There is a way.
It's just not directly writable. It can be described, but not everyone will get it. Or it is writable, but is never as easy as it sounds.

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