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Ear itchy bobby pin

Overreaction, drama queen

Coopers ligament

Kayla b***h violated fair labor standards act by not paying the instructors. Dena was like "but who is it hurting?". Answer:. When Kayla b***h doesn't pay the instructors, it means she doesn't pay enough employer taxes or corporate taxes. Taxes go toward section eight housing and food stamps.

Because of Kayla, some people have to be homeless and hungry

Not all impacts are immediate, visible, physical, or direct

And what Kayla b***h did, is much worse than everything I ever allegedly did wrong in the dojo

But kaylas slaves don't care because "she's a good teacher"

Loyalty

Subconscious biases

Ass holes don't care about anyone except themselves, and they put on a facade like they care about you so much


Moral robbery

Unethical

Coat of good sold

Car repairs and detailing.

Walkouts.

Colloquium papers.

Paint colours.

The ghost I saw as a teenager.

Triggers.

Finding a new dog groomer.

Sunday can't come soon enough.

I have a friend whose truthtelling has not been stellar. Mostly, attention-seeking stuff and white lies regarding friendship itself. Since I can not be sure I am right on any particular thing, I just go along with it and do what I can for support. But I'm not a person they go to for support, or even conversation.

Recently the nature of their stories has taken a drastic turn, and I'm worried. If the stories are true, they've had some harrowing experiences, and if they are not, then there's a big problem. The person they do go to for support does not take me seriously. I am powerless to help. I don't even have someone I can ask for guidance. Kinda not my problem, given how arms-length they keep me, but I have a perspective born of that arms-length-keeping that I'm pretty sure their support person is missing. But I don't want to make it their problem, I don't want to damage their relationship. Can't actually do that, given that they don't take me seriously, but whatever. No clue what to do about it.

Basically, their support person takes what they say at face value, and I don't want to damage their relationship telling them what I know. I have a key piece of information, but it's not my part to tell anyone about it. And it'd be counterproductive to my own standing to say anything, as I'm sure they won't believe me.

So tired of being told I'm wrong, BTW. And I am completely useless to people.

Strange feelings in afternoons.
Usually in warm afternoons.

I just don't know what that feeling was.
It is simply strange. It felt like a form of detachment yet somewhat jarring at the same time...

But it mostly happens when it's warm.
Dry and hot, maybe, but more so when humid and hot. And it's mostly in the afternoon.


If temperature is a trigger...
So it might not be emotional or psychological. Likely physiological.
Only that I cannot pinpoint it, and unsure of what it does except make me feel weird.

Not really discomfort, just outright alien... Even if I felt it a lot of times before.

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I should be reading.

Brrrrrr I've had to put my heating on for the first time since about May. I was feeling it a bit.

It's funny when you think that what can make one person feel unhappy can make another person feel completely content.

Making my own chores... Simply things I wanna do yet forgot to do it.

Many of which seem to be past due date for a long time. Years overdue.


Why I haven't made this sort of week long spring cleaning???
Because I had stumbled something on accident. Because a spell broke and now I'm free from it.


Or maybe, like damn usual, temporary.
It's just another of those stupid symptoms that happened to benefit me in some EF areas at the moment.

I wanna believe this is not temporary, instead of a part of some stupid loop.

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I need to study.

After all those inane stuff I did to make my sleep schedule change, and the inane changes that happened.


... It just boils down to -- 5 hours later than last few weeks ago or so.

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I could never eat a ham and pineapple pizza.

But out of all the pizzas in all the world I think they smell the best.

Pizza had never been a favorite of mine.
Because I don't like the combination of bread and cheese.

Yet, I'm sure... It's one of the flavors that I can get used to and acquire overtime.
Who knows? It might become a favorite of mine in time.

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I did not realized. It's been 3 weeks since I started writing in that particular notebook.


And wrote 40+ entries.
All random. From weird to-dos and what have I've done/s, to strange lists of lists and confessions.

Maybe I should ditch my (specialized) BuJo notebook, implement it in this notebook instead...


Or maybe mini notebooks isn't really for me. And was trying to be too economic about the pages.
And also residual obsessions about making it mysterious and secretive.

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I need to study.