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i am a programmer who works from my home. and i also have a chip (frozen boxes of fries) delivery business.
everything is fine with the programming job, but the chip delivery business is causing me worry to a degree.

i have a "friend" who i have known since i was 13, and he is 3 years older than me, and he thinks he is very smart, but i know he is not that smart.

he wants to be a lawyer but he is not smart enough to be a lawyer because he always argues stupidly with me about things.

throughout our lives, he has always considered himself much smarter than me, but he has never had a job that he kept for long, and i became a programmer at 19, and he always justified my "success" as just good luck. he never attributed my success to my talents but he always thought i "land on my feet like a falling cat".

time went by and i made money and he stayed dreaming about his "fantastic abilities", and he lived in doss houses on welfare benefits. he is extremely proud and he sees me as a recipient of inordinately good luck.

i am his boss currently because he works as a driver for my chip delivery business (saturdays only), and he is so hostile toward me that he hates me badly, but he still has to do the deliveries because if he does not, then he would not be able to live.

am i to blame that i am now his boss? he thinks that a conspiracy of "luck" has placed me where i am (i do not have to do any physical work (except i did on christmas day)). if he does not like it then i can get another driver for saturday and pay them $100 less than i pay him for saturday.

i am being kind to him for paying him so much, but he says things like "ahhh. so now i am your "b***h" huh? you're gonna work me like a n****r in the cornfields!?!?".

no one else talks to me that way.

i say that i can get cheaper employees than him (my week day driver is prepared to do saturdays and wants to do it, but i tell him no because i want to give my friend some income)

if i used my weekday driver, i would pay $230 for his services tomorrow, but i said "no", and instead i let my "friend" do it for $320. despite that, my "friend" is still very angry with me.

he leaves me no alternative than to show him the door within a few weeks, and he will go beserk that i have fired him.

i understand why he never stayed long in employment. he will not stay much longer in my employment either.

he looks down on me and he sees my asperger syndrome as a reason why i am a "selfish prick" in his mind.

well it is the clash of the titans in this case, and i will win and he will explode in rage when i tell him his services are no longer required.

I went to try to get an id today only to find out I can't get one. You need 6 points of proof of who you are and the most points I can get is 4.

I have no idea how I'll get one and other things require an id too. If I were to get a job or get ssi or welfare I would probably need an id. I can't even have a bank account without id.

Last edited by hanyo on 30 Dec 2011, 2:11 pm, edited 1 time in total.

I feel incredibly anxious today, and have had this strange, irritable feeling on and off for a few months now. I used to have loads of patience, but I feel it's all been stripped away. I don't know myself anymore...

my cats are dead and the house is empty without them. i don't have money to buy new ones. i don't have money to fix the electricity in my living room, i wear the same clothes from years ago because i don't have money to buy new ones. i don't have a car. i'm stuck in a job i hate. my brother who i believe is an aspie barely talks to me, not because he doesn't like me, but because it's hard for him to talk even to family members. i had the flu almost a month ago and am still coughing. i found out being around people i like gives me the creeps. i'm tired all the time and miss the hyperactivity of my twenties and thirties. i'm getting old...
thanks for asking. feels good to get it off my chest.

Total sensory overload freakout.

Waking up with a sore throat.

I missed my kids, but they're driving me bonkers. I picked a terrible day to go sober...

Lonliness and I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !

I saw two women who were anxious to get Christmas done and over with taking the Christmas tree down in the lobby. One of them had the gall to to ask how I was feeling as I saw the end of it. I told her that I was feeling crappy. She had the gall to say, "Maybe you'll feel better once the New Year starts!" with an annoying smile. I told her, "Oh yeah....that dull month of January is creeping up on us. At least there's one good thing about January. Mick Avory joined The Kinks in the January of 1964."

Was I supposed to say something false and flaky such as this?

"I love how spacious this room is going to look and I'm excited about the New Year and there are many things that I love about January and I can't get enough of it!"

I'd rather be real than flaky and I'm glad I told her what I did.

Concerning the part about lawyers, he probably has the stereotype of the arguing lawyer and thinks he is practicing. From the detached perspective I have, it's obvious that the, "friend," is quite envious about your skills and is the real selfish prick.

About the firing, it might be wise to have some kind of witness, if only for the chance that he'll go berserk. If it requires a court, I doubt he'll be believable for long, but having a third person always helps.

[People who constantly assume they are better than everyone else because of something mediocre do nothing but provide no end of special interests that give me power to provide humiliation when the hubris becomes some kind of egomania.]


It's reassuring to know that there is some truthfulness and logic being used in conversations. I suppose that is an excellent benefit of AS.

I'm unhappy because I think the only reason for why I choose to read the scholarly articles about ASD's is to make myself think I'm more of a NT than a person on the spectrum. Maybe the stage of denial was delayed, and this, as opposed to reading a few shallow articles and thinking, "whew, I'm normal," is the true denial described by psychologists. I wonder about what mental state comes after denial..

i went bed at 5am. what is wrong with me

why do bus and train fares have to go up every single january.cheeky

went i went to the supermarket to buy my food for tonight and i noticed a man who was restocking a refrigerated shelf with strawberries, and i thought "excellent!! those strawberries are fresh", so i decided to buy a punnet of them.

when i finished my dinner, i decided i would eat my strawberries, and they were absolutely disgraceful.
there was one strawberry that was moldy, and i realized that whatever fungus and bacteria was consuming that strawberry was also probably starting on the other strawberries, and i was so disconcerted that i had to discard them all. the supermarket is called "woolworths" and it is the biggest supermarket in australia. their slogan is "woolworths the fresh food people". how can they get away with marketing themselves with that slogan ?.

here is an example (i know it is 3 years old, but i am too lazy to look further on youtube for a newer example) of their advertising.

it is sickening. they use children and immature singing voices to promote the concept of freshness.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlVPAq2y2EM[/youtube]


every time i try to buy my coffee flavored milk and chocolate flavored milk from woolworths, it is always about 5 days older (or more) than the milk i see in petrol stations.

for example, i saw their milk today, and i decided not to buy it because it was dated "use by 1/1/12", and that is today!!. i stopped at a service station to get my flavoured milk (double the price), and it was dated "use by 12/1/2012". it was 11 days fresher than the woolworths offering.

if i bought some chocolate milk 10 days ago, and it was in my fridge for 10 days (if i forgot to drink it), i would not drink it because the thought of 10 day old milk is very unappetizing to me.

they must get their milk in bulk shipments, and they keep restocking their shelves with the same shipment day after day until it runs out.

last week i bought some chilled (not frozen) sweet corn cobbettes for the possums (who i still visit every sunday night), and when i went to where my possums were (they were waiting), i broke open the package, and i offered them the cobs in my hand, and they happily grabbed them, but then they looked dissastified, and they let them drop to the ground.

i smelled a cob and it stunk badly and i knew why they rejected them. they almost smelled like they were fermenting into alcohol, and they were extremely stale (almost rotten) even though their use by date was was 2 days hence.

not even possums will accept the produce that woolworths sometimes try to flog.


"fresh food people" indeed ! !. they are taking over the food market in australia, and they are replacing quality brands with their own cheap generic equivalents, and i am scared that soon i will have no choice but to buy their generic brands which are vastly cheaper tasting than the brands i am used to.


what is the world coming to ?!?!

because all januaries are single januaries. there is only one january per year.

I did as well and now I'm tired like heck.

what time is it now there? i didn't get up til midday