15 Mar 2025, 10:20 am
i had my year 10 mock gcse exam for english literature yesterday
i haven't properly been in school for a year or so so i didn't know what to write and physically couldn't write anything because of the question i was being asked
it took me 16 minutes to put my hand up to ask a question (there are only 3 other people in the room). the teacher who was there said to get her attention if we needed something, and i made eye contact with her atleast 4 times, which i thought was pretty obvious i wanted something
i didn't write a single word, not even my teacher's name which we were meant to put, i just sat there and tried not to cry too obviously
and i was forced to leave since i had a break inbetween the exam (i kinda asked to stay in the room) and i had to sit in a teacher who i dont really know's office whilst he sat there and asked me questions and got no replies (i literally just sat there not replying because i couldn't tell him that when i get too upset i usually don't/can't speak when people are with me because he didnt realize and i didn't have my sketchbook and only had a pen, but then he realized and after that it was better and then i went home after a bit
the original post i was gonna make felt too long since i was just yapping for ages lmao
i'm slightly nervous to go back into school on monday for my chemistry exam, which will be better since it's questions i'm being asked rather than getting me to write on my own, but the room i'm in is bigger which means more people, more pressure and stuff which will suck because i hate trying to be silent and as still as i possibly can
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15 Mar 2025, 12:36 pm
I woke up with a cough and some chest congestion. Just great, if this is anything like the infection I got in October, then I'll be spending the next two weeks coughing my lungs out and not being able to go anywhere.
That's what I get for going out shopping. I noticed other people coughing and I made sure my hands were sanitized and avoided touching my face, but people shed viruses long after they've recovered so I guess without a haz-mat suit I'm screwed. 
15 Mar 2025, 1:05 pm
It feels weird not being perfect or the best now
In my old primary school I always had the best scores and stuff but now I'm in a grammar school I'm the bottom of the class
At first I blamed it on the fact that you can't be the best in a school with all the best people but I still was one of the best in year 7, and I was fairly good in year 8 but then I lost my sparkle I guess. lmao
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17 Mar 2025, 11:14 pm
i haven't properly been in school for a year or so so i didn't know what to write and physically couldn't write anything because of the question i was being asked
it took me 16 minutes to put my hand up to ask a question (there are only 3 other people in the room). the teacher who was there said to get her attention if we needed something, and i made eye contact with her atleast 4 times, which i thought was pretty obvious i wanted something
i didn't write a single word, not even my teacher's name which we were meant to put, i just sat there and tried not to cry too obviously
and i was forced to leave since i had a break inbetween the exam (i kinda asked to stay in the room) and i had to sit in a teacher who i dont really know's office whilst he sat there and asked me questions and got no replies (i literally just sat there not replying because i couldn't tell him that when i get too upset i usually don't/can't speak when people are with me because he didnt realize and i didn't have my sketchbook and only had a pen, but then he realized and after that it was better and then i went home after a bit
the original post i was gonna make felt too long since i was just yapping for ages lmao
i'm slightly nervous to go back into school on monday for my chemistry exam, which will be better since it's questions i'm being asked rather than getting me to write on my own, but the room i'm in is bigger which means more people, more pressure and stuff which will suck because i hate trying to be silent and as still as i possibly can
I have my english LANGUAGE exam today (slept through yesterday's schoolday), hopefully the same thing doesn't happen.
and i didn't revise either
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17 Mar 2025, 11:16 pm
In my old primary school I always had the best scores and stuff but now I'm in a grammar school I'm the bottom of the class
At first I blamed it on the fact that you can't be the best in a school with all the best people but I still was one of the best in year 7, and I was fairly good in year 8 but then I lost my sparkle I guess. lmao
That happened to me. It was partly because at the grammar school the competition was brighter, but ASD had a lot to do with it too. They taught things more clearly at the primary school. I'd also been falling behind a bit at the primary school towards the end of my stay there. I think later on they expected everybody to get things from the context better, and a few other Aspie-unfriendly things. And the workload was much greater at the grammar school. Something seemed to happen around the age of 10 or 11. It took me years to realise that my intelligence hadn't got any worse.
I can relate to that quite alot! The workload here certainly has shot up since primary school. I'll keep that in last part in mind and maybe it'll motivate me more XDD
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18 Mar 2025, 12:22 am
Work.
I'm not happy because of how much I'm needed elsewhere.
Gimme a damn break, damnit. I hadn't had one before I gotten ill since last week. 
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