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I live in Finland. Swedish is an official language here just like Finnish, even though only around 5 % of people talk Swedish as their first language. Almost everyone is required to learn Swedish in junior high (in my childhood, but these days it starts in sixth grade) with the exception of some immigrants and some kids who go to special education classes. I was one of the later, and chose not to take Swedish classes because I was struggling with other subjects at the time. If I'd known back then that a university would never be an option without that language, I would've taken the classes, but an education like that was never something that was spoken about at home or at school. Home I get, both my parents are working class from working class families, but school... well, it was a special needs school, so they probably thought there was no point.
Apparently, my teacher wanted to delay my graduation from junior high with a year so I could study more of the subjects I struggled with and make me the first student of the school to go to high school, but my parents were against it and wanted me to go to a vocational school. At the time I agreed with them since going to tenth grade like my teacher wanted me to do is very rare here and is technically like repeating 9th grade, the main difference being that repeating 9th grade wouldn't be voluntary, but tenth grade would be. I've kinda been regretting it the recent years. I did study Swedish at the vocational school, was a must, but it was easy private lessons made with the fact that I hadn't studied it earlier in mind. I've forgotten pretty much everything since it wasn't needed anywhere.

In any case, while many, if not most, people won't ever really need good Swedish in their lives, the laws say that you can't graduate from the universities without passing the Swedish courses, and the law also forbids recruiting people without good enough language skills on paper for some positions that work for the cities, towns and country. Of course, this all applies to English language too (minus the official language -part), but that wouldn't be a problem for me. I'm not good at speaking that, either, but I'm convinced that's just lack of practice.

Lately, a certain political party has been making noise about wanting to drop Swedish language's official position though, which would also stop people from having to study it. Fingers crossed that they'd succeed in the next few years.

I wish I had a time machine so that I can travel back to 2019 when this site was still pretty active.

"vegetables" its a bit of a drawn out word for me. It should be just "vegables".

Just say veg.

Veggies!

I'm trying to distract myself and ignore the urge to self harm. I feel like I'll go too far with it and regret it. Aside from sleeping I can't really manage to distract myself from anything though.

I'm really sorry you're going through this. *Hugs*

What distractions helped you the last time you felt this way? No pressure to respond if you're not up to it/don't want to.

Edit: previous sentence didn't make sense.

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I usually distract myself by organizing or cleaning things, though I haven't been able to get motivated to do much lately because I've been really depressed. I did manage to make myself spend a few hours today raking up and organizing a bunch of leaves, sticks, pine cones, and chestnuts. I feel a bit better after doing that.

Nor sure about upcoming family reunion, one relative has already threatened to pop another’s breast implants with a knitting needle.

fsdfjs;dlfjasd;

I might need video of that. ^

On my mind: I'm weepy. I love my peeps.

Since when did tracking parcels become normal behaviour

I was mistaken for a boy today. This hasn't happened to me for many a year.

Literally, I was walking round Aldi this morning and there was two women (early 20's). There was some kind of exchange between us but I can't remember what it was and then I heard one saying to the other that she thought I was a boy.

I'll take it as a compliment, at least she didn't say man or even worse old man.

/\Lol once when I was walking past the school some kid on the playground started yelling at me, “ Hey girl , you better get in the school building!You're going to get in trouble!”
I was around 45 at the time.I suppose because I am short and he wasn’t that close.

I think I look more feminine looking since I've got older to be honest.

I managed to get appointments to see my therapist and my doctor this week. I really need to see my therapist because I'm mentally not doing good at all, but I'm also really nervous.