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A need to get back to studying for my class tomorrow.

I finished a paper & submitted it online about ten minutes ago.

If I cared how many people still hate Germans because of WWII, I'd be in the psych ward.

We're going to a club to see a band.
I think I've forgotten how to be cool.

I saw a German man who was in my special needs work experience program crying because he didn't have a work experience. I lost my mind and "Keep Calm and Carry On" became my mantra. That was in 1993. I acted British for another 23 years and than I burnt out like I've never had before.

I should have confessed my love for Germany over Britain, right than and there and quit with the stiff upper lip.

I have to get up at 2 AM tomorrow to do 2 hours of overtime because the washers weren't working today. I wanted to just stay late and NOT have to be completely devoid of any sleep, but apparently everyone in my department decided to just come in early tomorrow. Of course, no one actually f*****g asked me anything, because everyone thinks I'm basically ret*d and that my input means nothing. Then all my coworkers were asking me if I'm staying late, like I even had an actual choice to??? I hate how no one consults me or tells me about anything. It's pissing me off.

I woke up at 2 AM to do 2 hours of overtime that I didn't even agree to do w/ my back f****d up. I hope that my back isn't conveniently too f****d up for me to come into work tomorrow after this... That would sure suck for my manager if that was the case...

^ They are f*****s. You deserve a week or two off.

Today I slept in until almost 2 PM. Which is odd because because I've been waking up late in the morning most days lately even if I fall asleep really late.

Maybe it's because the days are shorter, but I doubt it. About a year or two before my diagnosis I started having really bad insomnia which officially started in November. I used to have panic/anxiety attacks and sleep apnea that kept me awake. Or they'd wake me up the second I'd dose off.

I also had an uncomfortable dream where I was back in a home but then suddenly everyone vanished and I was all alone. Apparently they had evacuated because of some impending disaster like nuclear war, but they didn't bother telling me or taking me with them. So I went outside and started calling for them and being pretty terrified because I thought everyone else was dead now except for me. Which is weird, you'd think I'd be happy instead. Then I was found and driven to some building or shelter where a lot of people and I just sat around for hours with no food or water although I did see what looked like tea or coffee being made and someone asked us if we'd like some KFC. I was also playing around with a Tamagotchi.

I have been so tired lately. Can barely get through the day.

My little cousin got a new phone and must have gotten my number from her mom's phone. I feel like a massive as*hole because she keeps texting me but I barely can respond because I don't want to talk to anyone right now. I have no energy to respond to her and she's probably upset that I'm not talking to her. I can tell that she wants to talk to me really bad. I'm the actual worst cousin ever for ignoring an 11 year old.

I'm going to take a weight loss quiz online to see if I'm ready to lose weight.
Click Click I am ready. No more knee pain.

Just managing with my difficulties as best as I can