longshot wrote:
Readydaer wrote:
Kinda feel sad and feeling out of place because right now media is my only escape from life and almost all autistics in media are savants and I'm not (at least not that I've discovered) and feel Less Than.
I sincerely feel a great amount of emotional content that, your not feeling very good today at all, as I'm not either.
I'm never happy anymore and the only temporary relief is when all of my attention, ALL of it, is focused on one thing, typically only things that I like like video games, reading, watching videos about my interests. If I am ever aware that I exist and am seen and perceived and have a body I immediately lose all will to live and can't motivate myself to do anything. So yes, you are correct. Also, my special interests are completely useless in the real world, and what is useful I am not interested ENOUGH in.
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My god. jelly donuts are so scary.