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Maybe I should go for people that are the exact opposite of what my instinct says.

How can people be such monsters? I don’t get it.

^ Hope you're doing alright, TP.

I feel so hot and gross. I thought I was getting better, yet I feel worse than I did when I tested positive on Wednesday. I don't want to go to work tomorrow but today the line on the test was so faint that I doubt I'll still show up as positive tomorrow.

thinking of redrawing the Zoolander 'scuse me brah' scene with my oc's and showing it to my friend. i find it incredibly amusing

I was going to write the 'chug chug' story today or start it anyway. I wanted to do that yesterday, but my plans got switched up on me last minute. Today worked out fine for it, especially given the weather. All the dog wanted to do today is hide under a blanket and be smashed up into me. Poor guy is afraid of strong winds, and it was pretty bad for most of this morning and afternoon.

Anyway, I sat down to get to the story and I decided that I needed to get to writing 'the stuck man' first. I kinda want Aaron's character in town before Henry goes missing, so I'm thinking chronological order is the way to go with these two chunks...not that it has mattered for a lot of these stories, but I think it will matter to me for these ones. But sitting here today..hm. Now I remember why I never did get to writing this story in the first place. I find the way it ends and him going in not circles to be outstanding. I'm excited about writing that part. But as stupid as it is, I'm not excited about the first part of this story, about writing him getting there. And I should be. I love all the things he does that day. This should be cake. Wtf? I need to get this refigured. It's not it.

I'm debating whether or not to cut my hair.
It's really long and gets tangled sometimes.

I'm flipping through pictures online for ideas.
I wouldn't go super short, but idk --
I'm not sure I'll do it though.

I think I got it figured out. His mindset wasn't coming through, that alone undertone. I needed to totally wallflower his a**. I got a decent chunk of the start rewritten with that seeping through and I think it works, so far so good anyway. I think I still want him to flip out on the ride there, going back and forth between being excited to go on this trip, hating his life, wanting more, settling for less, and the pull of his head to yank him out of himself and knock him into a reality he's starting to connect with, be present in. A few stops can show mood improvement and stabilizing. The diner and that waitress help and I need to give that all way more attention. But that first night, he can really shake off all the ook and be present in the moment and be one with the okay. That next day can then get into the weirdness of all roads leading to one store and so on. Yeah. This pleases me. I'm so glad this stupid brain fog is starting to lift. I missed writing these trash stories. Oh hobbies. I tell ya.

To Lent, or not to Lent. That is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of an Outrageous Flirt
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To cease —to post
No more; and by a post to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd.

I wish this was a haven. I wish you could have been vulnerable.

The question of what to do today. I have hard wood floors that might benefit from some attention. I might clean them up and put the floor polish on them. I want to write more. I think exercise wise it will be a stair stepper kind of leg day with some arm stuff tossed in after. Beyond that? No clue. I am at peace with this.

Does it really take me 3 hours of playing around the internet to transition from 'work' to 'just go to sleep, damnit'?

I came back home at 9.
Not unusual in Wednesdays.

But I seriously wish that those damn meetings don't have to drag that damn long.
Though that would be partially my fault since I don't like 'reminding' people.

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I can't believe it's already 4. The day flew by and I didn't get much done beyond writing. That's alright though. I did get my exercise for the day done and the rest can wait. Beautiful things about housework, it will patiently wait for you to attend to it later. It's not going anywhere.

Beyond that, I'm not looking forward to that phone call tomorrow. I know it's part of the process and that in the end this is a really good and helpful thing for me, but damn, I hate phone calls in general and this one is important so it's going to stress me out more than some casual talk. Hopefully I get through the call without going silent. Silence would be the opposite of helpful. I got this. I can do this. Yeah.

My cat has started following me around the house sometimes and it's adorable. He's so needy and has to always be around me. I love him.