UncannyDanny wrote:
Edna3362 wrote:
You remind me of my old online friends interacting.
There were types of them and many of them are inbetween;
Despite being used to hang out a lot with them, I still couldn't understand the whole flirting and perverted stuff.
I also don't get the references; vibes with certain games or shows... Or even topics like politics and philosophy.
Whether it's intellectual, existential, woo-woo or toxic.
As for why I couldn't get it, it's clearly not the autism.
I couldn't understand why they're into perverted stuff so much, when there are a lot of other things to get into.
I got nothing against "adult topics".
It's just that I don't get the 'hype' of it.
Hmmm...
PWD meetings and affairs makes me... More pro-social.
Because not all of them are NTs, or NTs who won't get it, nor are the NTs who basically perpetuate that the world (humanity/society) is "not patient".
It actually makes me feel like I'm a part of something.
And not this stupid 'hierarchy' play. No, I feel more like an equal or closer to it.
If there's any hierarchy play, I could 'play' it to an extent that no one's making a fool out of me.
It's like they are able to see MY age -- "both" of it and not just either of it.
The immature one and the responsible one.
Not with dismissing the appearances and 'flaws' of the former, putting standards and reasonable distance over the latter alone.
Why can't people get this?
That I do act younger than my age.
At the same time respect that I have responsibilities as well, that I can act like my own age while at it.
Not the stupid contradicting dichotomy where people just don't see all of me.
I somewhat wish that my boss sees it this way.
That other people can, too.
A part of me just... Can't get over the fact that not everyone will. As much as I had to grudgingly accept this very fact...
.. Even those who supposed to matter to me.