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finally cleaned Pigpen today.

for the first time since april, back hrrt today. but not that much. sooner or later, back pain will get much worse.

bad posture

today was memorial day. wanted to hang out w/"friends". but neither dena nor corey will answer my emails, and they might not wanna be my "friends" anymore. but WTF ever. "life" goes on and on and on and on and on s**t.

been getting cold temperature after eating.

exhausted lately

trouble sleeping

emotional overeating. but metabolism might be getting higher due to testosterone or any other reason, such as tapeworm.

finding a public litterbox is so inconvenient lately, esp since covid. plenty of litterboxes are only one person occupancy, and there's someone inside, and when i'm inside, someone has the nerve to try to unlock the door. (rolls eyes).

off leash dogs

f**k those ret*d ass holes

almost get hit by a car a couple times a day

coworker cortez said that he's been absent from work for a couple months b/c he had a heart attack. he's only 38 and i am 40. but he's so fat. sometimes i'm surprised i haven't had a heart attack yet. constant stressors. loud noises. sketchy, suspicious looking employees, customers, and day laborers. can't unwind. could use a prescription tranquilizer.

40 nothing accomplished

Am just as pissed as my boss.

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I think my immune system has ADHD. I've always got an allergy reaction in my sinuses (hay fever causing rhinitis, all year round), except when I have an infection like an ear infection, mouth infection or glandular fever, then I don't have a twinge or anything in my sinuses and my nose remains dry. Then as soon as the infection or illness has gone my hay fever/rhinitis comes straight back again. It's like my immune system has always got to be active, when it hasn't got an infection to deal with it has to be dealing with something so it decides to insanely protect my sinuses (even though my sinuses didn't need protecting when I had an infection elsewhere).
I just hope my immune system doesn't discover my eyes, because I read somewhere that the immune system doesn't know about the eyes or something but if it does then it will think the eyes are a threat and attack them. Don't know how true that is.

With the amount of people who've been f***ing with me all my life, I should have AIDS by now.

Paying tuition that I still owe my college.

Wondering if "unconditional love" is real and if people actually get that from their family members.

Houston might have an NHL team soon.

Pride month is coming up and I'm going to be stringing some pretty colourful beads throughout the month.

I am once again having feelings for my same sex friend

Let's destroy the old world they created for themselves together.
And make anew. One that is feasible.

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I've given up on trying to be friendly and helpful IRL. Everyone just treats me like s**t anyways and makes me feel like crap. I have zero friends anyways and am never going to manage to get + keep a friend because I'm too socially inept and annoying.

Stranded at work, in a middle of the storm.


I don't think my bike alone could make it tonight.
Because there's flooding at home now.


I'm willing to charge in the rain with a bike, with terrible visibility and slippery roads.
But something tells me I won't be risking that. I'll just fold my bike and grab a ride instead... Can't just leave my bike on the rain.

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Just got the house appraised today after many months of making improvements. Maybe our property value will finally go up.

I'm going to King's Dominion tomorrow. My first real vacation in so very long.

I saw someone at the store that was my friend from 3rd grade through high school, and now I feel more lonely and sad.